Stop and visit, talk all you want. Pt. 20

Or maybe he's going to haunt me! lol

Off to work, ladies! More talk tonight. Maybe.

Did Tammy leave because of the princess thing?

I think so.

Work was bad today. Too many things going on at once. Mom is in a bad state. She's refusing everything including food.

Sorry to hear that Celia.... about your mom and work :(

Why was work bad?

Morning ladies! I ain't normal by any stretch of anybody's imagination, but I'm dressed!! YEA!!! I've never taken a med that has made me so dizzy, I feel like I'm going to pass out. I also HATE whining about MY health issues!! ☺

We were in MY beloved Mustang. My baby. She's 10 years old, but neither the cop or the semi driver could believe it. She's a beauty. The good news is that although the ditch wasn't fun to drive down, it didn't do a lot of damage to my baby.

Tammy will be greatly missed. She is one fantastic human being. I have more going on in my life and Tammy has helped me immensely. If not for her and our beloved Mau, I would of fallen apart worse than I did. Tammy is a wonderful, sweet human being.

Celia, I'm so sorry about your mom. I guess all I can hope is that you've somewhat come to terms with what's happening. It doesn't make it any easier, I know this from personal experience, however it helps in a very small way. I sincerely hope that makes some sense to you.

Thanks, Terry! It has been a long time since anyone called me "beloved" (except for Pau, of course). :o)) I love all of y'all. Even though all our personalities and likes and dislikes are quite different, not to mention our age differences, I think we all get along quite well and have shown a great deal of understanding and empathy toward one another's troubles. I will miss Tammy--It's not going to be the same without her mischievous laughter around here.

Celia, I, too, am sorry about your mom--I echo Terry's words. You are certainly in our thoughts. Please let us know if there is anything at all we can do for you. You know, of course, that our shoulders are here for you to cry on whenever you feel the need.

Love and hugs to all!
Mau

Gosh, everybody. I feel like you're the best friends a person can have. I WILL be crying on your shoulders, believe me. Brother Mark and I are going to see mom together on Sunday.

Did I say thanks when you all helped me with dad? If I didn't, then "Thank you." I'm going t obe worse off when mom goes, I know that. I always think I'm doing okay and then BAM!!! Tears all over the place.

I love all of you, even the ones who pop in once in awhile.

You're welcome Mau. I didn't think you didn't know how I felt about you. I love you. You are very beloved to me. I've come to love everybody on this thread and echo what Mau said about the dislikes etc, we all get along famously!

Celia, it's been a little more than 7 yrs that my paternal grandma died. I loved her like nobody. I did nothing wrong in her eyes. I never disappointed her. EVER. When I walked in, her eyes lit up and she always said "there's my girl!". To this day, thinking about her, brings me to tears. I miss her so much it hurts. I miss "Terry, hold my hands. Yours are always so warm". Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my husband and I LOVE our daughter and I LOVE the son I lost, but with grandma? How do I explain? Always and forever, my grandma was there for me. To kiss my boo-boos, to make the boogie man go away. Everything. All of my life. It's not the same as the love I have for my husband, our daughter and the son I lost. It's just not. So anytime, anytime at all you need somebody to talk to, we're ALL here for you. We ALL love you!! And don't you forget it missy!!! LOL

Love and hugs to all!!
Terry

Good morning, everyone! It snowed! AGAIN!!! It's snowing now. (Have I mentioned I don't like snow?)

Terry, you brought tears to my eyes first thing this morrning. GOOD tears. I know what you mean about a special love just for one person. It will never be broken.

Happy thoughts!!! ☺

I echo what Terry said, Celia--don't you forget that we are here for you!
Well, now, Terry I just might have to spank you for staying up so late. You know you are not supposed to let yourself get tired!! I understand about your grandmother--my maternal grandmother was a special person to me--a veritable angel on earth in my eyes!

My mother was killed in a car wreck in 1983. To this day I can still hear the way she said "Hi" whenever she called me. It's the little things that seem to be insignificant that become VERY significant after a loved one has passed on. One day several years after Mother died, a lady called the office who cleaned the new houses for my boss (a home-builder) . When I answered the phone she said "Hi!" and I swear she sounded just like my mother. It really shook me and it literally left me speechless. When I didn't say anything, the lady went on talking and I was able to recover myself. Some time later I told her what had happened and she said she remembered it. I told her that I didn't want her to think I was being unfriendly. She said she understood completely.

It's another yucky day here in our area. Rainy and somewhat cold although it may not sound cold to some of y'all. We are at 53º but it is damp outside, to say the least, and the dampness just seems to seep inside and go straight through to your bones! We are supposed to get up to 77º but it will surprise me if it makes it up that high. Well, what would I do if I didn't have the yucky weather to complain about! LOL

Pau and I are heading out to Wal-Mart to buy groceries. I'll talk to y'all later.
have a good day everyone.

Love to all,
Mau

Thanks, Mau. Say "Hi" to Pau for us.

Your welcome and I will say "hi" to Pau, Celia!

Edited to say: I can't believe I did that--and I am such a stickler for correct spelling and good grammar! LOL It should be "you're welcome" instead of "your". My 11th grade English teacher, Mrs. Manees, would be horrified. There goes my good grade! LOL

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Most of that rain is down there for now. Though we are supposed to get hit hard tonight. I hope we don't get anymore flooding down there or up here. Got enough damage as it is from all the others.

Terry, well said!! :~)

Mau, tell Pau hi for me too!

Hi guys.... hope everyone is well

Talked to Tammy for an hour or so last night on the phone, she is sad, missing everyone, and mad, which I can understand, but other than that she is doing ok :)

Have 2 of my niece here overnight, way too many kids in my house, LOL but my sister is on her way to get them soon. Then I'm gonna try to get the kids in the tub, and clean the house a bit before Mike gets home. Looks like a tornado went through here!!!

My chandelier came in Friday, so we have it here, just have to get it put up. We are going to look for the matching light at Home Depot. Once we get the lights up the kitchen will be pretty much done!! Then I'll take some pictures.

My oldest daughter Dawn and her girlfriends dog had puppies 3 weeks ago today, here is a pic of the little brats LOL Dawn and Monique are keeping one, and the mama dog, but the rest will find new homes, and Mama is getting fixed along with the puppy they keep. This was her first litter and she had 8!!!! I'm gonna pay for the spay/neuter, but I figure its money well spent!

Have a great day everyone!

Thanks for the update on Tammy. I am going to write her a note later (via snail mail). Cute, cute puppies but then, all puppies are cute. What kind are they, Janis?

Pepper, it is still raining here and only 58º--where, oh, where is that 75º? Oh, well, at least it isn't snowing like it is where Celia lives!

I will tell Pau that all of y'all said "hi". I am sure he will say "hi" right back to you.
Pau doesn't even know how to turn this computer on and he certainly doesn't understand how perfect strangers can get so attached to each other (we are perfect, aren't we? but we are no longer strangers). I've stopped trying to explain it to him. LOL However, he went with me when I drove to Bull Shoals, AR last fall to meet Terry and he enjoyed meeting her and Krista and Terry's sister. By the way, Terry, did I ever tell you that Pau thinks Krista has beautiful eyes and a great smile? I do, too.

Celia, I'm glad you understood what I was saying. I'm a very sensitive person when bad things happen to people I love. Up until I was 18 yrs old, the only people I knew who died were a great uncle and a great aunt. We weren't allowed to go to their funerals, our parents thought us 3 kids were too young. My maternal great grandma and great grandpa were alive, all my grandparents, my aunts, my uncles, friends, everybody was alive. I just don't handle death or serious illnesses very well. A long time ago I had to be strong when my life seemed like it would never be the same. I needed to be strong because everyone around me was falling apart. I had to be strong for them. It was silly and I don't know why I thought that, but I was only 18 yrs. old. All I wanted was a rock to crawl under, but instead I cried myself to sleep for years. For anyone looking at me, I was a rock. In reality, I had shut off. I was on automatic. When my emotions were turned back on, it was a roller coaster ride for me. Tears, anger, tears and anger..I just kept switching back and forth. When I hurt, I hurt so deeply, it's painful. When grandma died, another piece of me died also and I think people thought I'd lost my mind. I hadn't of course, but I hurt that deeply, my chest hurt. I sometimes wish I knew how I shut off way back when so I could do it again, but I don't know how I did it. I don't like being so sensitive, but it must be the way I'm wired. And no, I've never suffered from depression. I don't know what depression feels like, but having an aunt and a cousin take their own lives because of depression, I know I've never felt that way.
As long as I'm going, I'm going to tell these 2 things also. 2 months after my grandma died, my mom had surgery to remove a Meningioma. A benign tumor in her brain. My sister and I were afraid that our mom wouldn't fight. She needed to fight. I know it's benign, but to recover and recover from this horribly invasive surgery, she needed to fight. I've been afraid before, but with this and my mom? It was hard. Mom did fight. She's not the same mom as I always knew, but she's still my mom in many ways.
In late Jan. of this year, I was called by my mom. She asked me if I had talked to my dad. When I told her no, she then, in a nonchalant sort of way, told me that he was going into the hospital to have cancer removed from his bladder. I listened as tears streamed down my face. My dad? My dad isn't a big hulky sort of guy, but he's a strong man and I didn't think I could do this. Of course it isn't me that has to go thru anything, but my emotions are in turmoil. Now I'm frightened. I'm scared out of my head. I can't lose my dad. My dads brother and sister both have passed away from cancer. They had colon cancer, but cancer nonetheless. My dad goes again on April 4th to have the procedure done again, because this new doctor says they never get all the cancer in the first surgery, so he feels it necessary to go in again. From there it will be decided if my dad has chemotherapy and/or radiation. And I'm scared. Mom is so far into denial, it's not even funny. This is her husband of 51 yrs. Where's my rock? I seriously need to crawl under it. Think positive, right? But how do I get C A N C E R out of my head?
So there you have it. I've now told why I've not felt much like joking and carrying on with you guys. The world has not screeched to a halt, even though at times I feel like it has in my world. I can get thru this, I have to. Please understand if at times, I'm MIA.

Wow. I feel better. I know that was probably long, it looks to be long from here anyway ☺ so if you all managed to read it all, I thank you. I'm long winded and I can seriously talk your ears off!

Speaking of talking people's ears off, I too, spoke with Tammy the other night for well over an hour. It was way past my bedtime and me still not feeling well, I needed to let her go. She is sad. There are some feelings of being mad, but mostly, she just feels sad. I understand her feelings totally. She told me today that she needs to joke because she's just so upset. She also feels as if her friends were ripped from her. Of course I could only speak for myself, but I assured her that she and I are good. We'll always be good, whether she's on DG or not. Or I'm on DG or not. We pass thru St. James on our way to Bull Shoals and we'll be stopping, just as planned before all this happened, to have lunch. Both ways. I also owe her a smack upside the head LOL

Mau! No, you didn't tell me you all felt Krista has beautiful eyes and smile. I agree of course, but then again, I guess I'm biased. Here's a picture of her when she was about 16 months old. I love this picture!! Tell Pau hi for me too!! I'm his favorite kid, you can't leave me out! LOL

Janis, we need pictures lady!! 8 puppies? At one time?? Oh my!! That's a lot of puppies!!

Overcast and dreary here too. Supposed to be drizzle sometime today and rain comes in tomorrow. We actually had thunderstorms the other day. Which is weird for this time of year in IL.

Have I talked enough?? Probably...LOL ☺

Terry, I don't understand why people don't let their children go to funerals. That's the best way to learn about death. We all undertand why you keep quiet, though! Your baby is beautiful and she'll always be beautiful no matter how old she gets.

Mau, get Pau on here one day and we'll have little chat with him. He'll understand after we get through with him! LOL

Darrell and I went to see mom. Brother Mark didn't make it. She's seems in good spirits and had tiny sips of milk while we were there. We stayed about an hour and she was asleep when we left. She's so thin. Darrell lifted her with no problem. I don't think it will be much longer. I showed her pics of my babies and she got a kick out of a short video I had of Monty playing with a toy mouse.

I don't know Celia. When Uncle Chick died, I was only about 8. It wasn't like I didn't know the man though. He was fun! He was married to my paternal grandpa's sister. When I was 16, my maternal great aunt Dorothy died. I knew her really well also. She was my brothers Godmother. With that one, my parents had gone to an oil convention when she died. We didn't know a thing about her being sick or dying, till I read it in the paper. Talk about a slap in the face. I honestly hold my maternal grandma at fault for that one. I've complained about both of them to my parents, but they really don't say much. You are right though. When our maternal grandpa died, we all went. My sister and her 2 kids and us and our daughter. At the grave site, my nephew had many many questions. I answered them all. He was an extremely bright 3 yr old to ask me the questions that he did.

The "baby" up there is now my 25 yr old baby!! LOL She's still beautiful. She has such an inner beauty that shines thru her eyes. Some people might think having a child with disabilities is a curse. For me? She's a blessing. God doesn't make mistakes.

I am so glad to read of your good visit with your mom. What a blessing. I wish I was there to give you a hug myself, but unfortunately, all I can do is a cyber hug
((((((((((((((((((((Celia))))))))))))))))))))

Yep, Terry, there are those same beautiful eyes in the younger Krista! :o))
I'm so glad you decided to share with those here on the chat thread about your dad.

Celia, I'm glad your visit with your mom went well. It is hard to see someone you love just slip away slowly. That happened with my favorite aunt--my mother's sister. She was in the same wreck that killed my mother. My aunt was driving and she always blamed herself for mother's death although none of us blamed her. She didn't have any children of her own and my sister, brother and I were like her children. She was very good to us. She had been single for 50 years when she died. Her husband ran off and left her for another woman when she was 24 and she never got over it. She never got over mother's death, either. They were extremely close. She literally grieved herself to death, I believe, although she had a lung disease. Funny thing, she never smoked but she had "hardening of the lungs". It was a hardening of the lungs that started at the bottom of her lungs and gradually worked its way up. It was hard to see her go that way. Sometimes I think it is better for a loved one to just be taken suddenly like my son and both my parents were. It is a shock, of course, but at least you don't have to watch them suffer.
It may seem to someone who may have just "dropped in" here that we are being morbid but it does help to be able to talk about these things. Keeping everything bottled up inside is not good.

Group hug:(((((((((((((((((((((((((Terry,Celia, Janis, Amanda, Amy, Tammy, Marie, Mau, Marcy, Beckie and anyone else who might be reading this!)))))))))))))))))))))))))

You girls are awesome!!! I love you!!! ☺☺☺☺☺☺☺

NOT morbid...coming to terms with life and death. It's good to talk it out.

It's not really late. I have new book I'm reading, so, I'm going to read until I feel tired. You ladies have a wonderful night and a better tomorrow.

I say it again...I love you!

And my Dragon Lily is coming up!

Good morning, everyone.

I got a call from my niece this morning. She reminded me we're going on a scrapbooking overnight adventure in two weeks! Ahhhhhh! I need to get ready. I have pics to collect, things to pack. We go to a hotel with about two hundred other people and take over one of the banquet rooms and scrapbook until we can't take anymore. We also have a room at the hotel, so, when we get tired, we can sleep for a couple of hours. It's going to be so much fun! Her mom is so funny! We'll be laughing until we can't breathe! LOL

It snowed again last night. Big surprise.

Cathy, I heard there was a tornado in Osceola today around 12-12:30. Did you all make it thru ok?

Mau, you ok down there also? I know you guys got hit really hard.

Oh dear!!! IS everyone okay? I'm worried now...

I heard from some people but so far no one on this page. I think everyone is ok though.

Thanks for asking, pepper and Celia. We are fine at my place--just a small thunderstorm here--no damage that I know of close by. I have not heard about a tornado in Osceola but I did hear of some straight-line wind damage in southeastern MO.

Celia, I used to be a scrapbooker. When I kept my DGD the first 7 years of her life, I started doing scrapbooks for her. I think I have at least 10 scrapbooks which go up to about the first 11 or 12 years of her life. I got out of the scrapbooking hobby a couple of years ago, though--sold all of my supplies and "stuff" for $75.00. That lady sure got a bargain!

I talked to Tammy via email yesterday. It was good to hear from her.

I gotta go get ready for Tuesday morning Bible study. Y'all have a great day!

hugs to all!

Mau

Good morning, everyone.

So glad everyone is okay. Tammy is a sweetie, isn't she?

I finally got my state taxes done last ngiht. I don't know why I kept putting it off. We're getting refund. ☺

Mau, that lady surely DID get a bargain! lol The 'retreat', as they're calling it, is going t obe fun. I've been on all day events but never an overnight. I have thousands of pics to go through. (sigh)

Hi all, this is our busy time at work so not checking in as often. I sure miss Tammy :o(
I do get to talk with her by e-mail but it is just not the same.

We miss her, too, Marie but I think most of us have been in touch with her via email and/or phone. We miss you, too, when you are not here. Don't work too hard!

Good morning, everyone.

No, Marie, it isn't the same. She and I keep in touch, as well.

Anybody have a good/different recipe for Eggs Benedict? DD wants it when she comes into town Sat. and I want to make something special for breakfast for her.

I everyone. Don't know much. I am however, a little ticked at the semi driver and his company. Seems they turned it into their insurance, instead of just accounts payable within the company. Insurance company is giving me a really bad feeling regarding payment for getting my car fixed. I'm giving them a week. If I haven't heard from them, my dad and I are going to speak with the Sheriff and get him involved. His officer wrote nothing on the accident "report". Except who was driving, license numbers, that sort of thing, but didn't write down what semi driver did and said, didn't write anything that my husband said or did, nothing I said. Most importantly, he didn't write semi driver accepts any and all responsibility for accident. I should get a picture of my baby. She might be 10 yrs old, but the semi driver and the cop had a hard time believing that. She's in perfect condition. sigh.

I also speak to Tammy via e-mail or phone. She's now realizing exactly how long winded I am when I know somebody...lol. And it sure isn't the same without her here. Well...lol...I just got 3 e-mails from Tammy. Yes, we go back and forth multiple times a day!

Have a great day, I'll check back in later!

Mau, I owe you an e-mail also! My fingers are sure getting a lot of exercise!

Terry
P.S. Does anyone have the same reaction upon hearing David Caruso's voice as I do? CSI Miami? John is watching the program that was TiVo'd Mon. night and his voice drives me insane. Not the good insane either..LOL

Terry, that's just aweful! I hope this gets resolved soon. You need your vehicle fixed. I men. my goodnes. Don't they know that?

Just a side note...The officer would write down what was said but it goes in his personal report not the 'accident report'. Just an FYI. If you can get the insurance company to get hold of that, it might help. I don't know what your laws are there.

David's voice gets a reaction from me but not a bad one. lol

Hope you get the problems solved with your car. I hate it when they dwadle like that.

Who's David?

They've got 1 week. I tried calling the semi driver today. Voice-mail. Never have I not received a call back from him within minutes. Me thinks I'm being avoided. He was probably told to avoid talking to us. They're messing with the wrong chick, that's for sure.

TEERRRRRYYY!!! You mentioned David Caruso in your last post. I was answering your question. LOLOL

Hello Ladies. Just a quick check in!!

KITTIES!!!

OMG Marie I wish I lived closer, I'd have one of those if you would let me ^_^ They are precious!!!

Not much new here, going to the tattoo shop tomorrow, unless I take Sarah to the DR. She is having pians in the left side of her chest, and mitral valve pro-lapse runs in our family, and my sister's started at about the same age, in the same way.. so ... sigh... off to the DR we go... hopefully they listen to me, and test her for it. My sis started having the chest pains at around age 11 and wasn't diagnosed until she was 21.

Hope everyone is doing well.... was nice here for a day, now its cold again, and supposed to be below average temperature wise for the next couple weeks... but spring will come eventually!

Hugs,
Janis

I wish you lived closer too Janice!!

I wish everyone lived closer!

Good morning, everyone! I want more kitties but I don't know of Darrell can handle any more. Our two are a handful already. lol

A funny thing...I go to a site called Stuff On My Cat. New pics added daily and they are very funny.