Thanks, Harper! (quaking in my socks) xx, Carrie
Yikes. . . I'm really scared.
Carrie, We are all standing by with hope and support. I am imagining you as a "quaking whimp in new shoes buried in a pile of seed packets" being wheeled into B&W tomorrow with the brakes on, but rolling out all smiles. It is time for the world to treat you more gently. Enough.
I will be ready when the blooms are too. Can't wait to get a good whiff of those lilacs. I am heading off to spring my dear friend from Mass Gen. and take her to Maine to recover for the week. Her DH died last year and I will be a better nurse than her son for the first few days. Great son, but he is not such a good cook. Plus I think keeping his kids (5 & 8) away until the weekend is wise. Adoreable, and much loved, but noisy and bouncy. Patti
Oh, I get the picture totally about the bouncy beloved kids. Best wishes to your friend - I hope both of us do splendidly!!!
Pre-op this am took way too long and was rehashing every medical procedure i had ever had. What kind of anesthesia had I had and why, had I had any bad reactions to it, blah blah blah. Funny that 'Partners' which encompasses pretty much all the decent hospitals in the Boston Area (Brigham and Womens, Beth Israel/Deaconess, Faulkner, MGH) doesn't or don't talk to each other! On the computer, there, the nurse had a record of EVERYTHING at the Brigham going back to 1994 but not of the several procedures they did at the Deaconess!!! Gggggrrrrr.
Yes, Patti, I really like the image of wheeling me into surgery as a quaking wimp but wheeling me out all smiles. I'll hold onto that, if you don't mind. xxx, Carrie
Good luck with everything. A positive outlook helps healing.
So I've heard - I think I have a positive one! xx, Carrie (fingers crossed, still quaking)
Maybe you could go in with seed packets and a smile for everyone, this would ensure good care! LOL
You'll do great Carrie, you do not seem like somone who is going to let a little bump stop you!! I'll be thinking of you, but not when im driving near any fire hydrants!!!!!
Yerp, do stay away from fire hydrants, especially the moving ones! Yes, my policy is to smile at everyone, no matter what they are doing to me. I find it keeps them off balance. (not in a bad way, just so they remember me.) Thanks, Celeste....xx, Carrie
Good luck! Thoughts are with you today!
Good luck, our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Thanks very much folks, but it's TOMORROW. I have all day today to stew and fret and worry. Michaela's coming over to play in the dirt with me. At midnight tonight I will have a feast and then nothing by mouth after midnight except clear water and pills until surgery.
I have a mental picture of those of you I've met, and for the rest, I have an icon that has a smile and says "picture coming soon." I can't tell you how good it feels to know I have a DG family behind me through this very minor but very scary procedure!
DD#2, age 14, says "I'm not gonna let anything happen to you, Mom." So does DH. I guess I should just try to believe them.
xxxxx, Carrie
Not try.....believe them! Good luck tomorrow Carrie, we'll all be rooting for you!!
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OK, Celeste (your icon is small, wiry and active; it won't hold still), I'll believe them! Thank you and your icon. LOL. If I couldn't laugh at things I would shrivel up and die. So I LOL and ha ha ha ha ha ha and LOLOLOL and ROTFLMAOLOLAPIMP! xxxxxx, Carrie
Pixie says:
"Take a dose of courage, and a sprinkle of Pixie dust for luck."
"Yes, Ma'am, right away, Ma'am," says Carrie, obediently.
Carrie, we are all praying for you so with all our "prayer" power, I'm sure you'll pull though fine.. :)
♫♫♫♫♫ look what I can do! I sure plan to be fine, and I hope to be fine, and I want to be fine, and with you guys on my team, how can I be anything BUT fine? ♫♫♫ x, Carrie
Carrie, I am not singing for you, that would make you beyond crazy, but I am loudly cheering! I made it to Maine. Nasty rainy day, but no snow. I have to drive back to MGH tomorrow to take my friend to have her bandages changed. Thank goodness I didn't have to do that. I am a good pal, but not a nurse. I will wave wildly in your direction when we are in Boston. I will come back up to Maine until the weekend, then home to see if I have any bulbs up. Victor has a crocus up. No fair. But then we all know fair is never fair. Be well, lots of garden pals cheering for you, big time. Sort of a "Davesnation" all for Carrie. Patti
Add my prayers to everyone else's. You know, I've always thought of polyps as like those little creatures that make coral. Easy to get rid of, you know. You will make it because we need you. We will "carrie" you through this!
Thank you, LariAnn, and that's how I thought of "polyps" too, so I wasn't at all concerned until he started the "technically malignant" speech. And I still wasn't at all worried, I came home and told DD#2 that I had a polyp "but it's not like I have cancer or anything!" Sigh.
Today I am eating as much as I can to prepare for tomorrow. No food after midnight isn't that big of a deal when you have to show up in the am but I'm supposed to show up at 1 pm. Past breakfast AND lunch.
Whine, whine, whine. ♫♫♫, Carrie
Good luck Carrie! Take your vitamins too!
Thoughts and prayers are with you Carrie! Eleanor
Best wishes for you Carrie. That not eating stuff is really not fun. Can you have a cup of coffee in the am at least? Load up tonight and sleep well, dream of flowers and gardens.
I've been eating all afternoon, everything I could think of. For lunch, Michaela came over (2+ hour drive, but she did it for the free seeds) and we had soup and bread. Then as soon as she was gone I had cocoa and mushrooms and toast and eggs and I forget what else. I am not a big stuff-my-face person generally. I just remembered - my sister-in-law is an oncologist. I hardly speak to my brother, let alone to my SIL. Then I bought some more 'hardy' gladiolus bulbs - I'm a sucker for punishment I guess. "Easy-to-grow-bulbs.com".
Yes, I can have clear liquids with sugar until 10 am! NO MILK OR CREAM. (They made that quite clear.) I may have soda, clear juices (cranberry, apple, etc but not OJ and NO MILK) and no bullion, which I was looking forward to! What a disappointment. No bullion. No nail polish. No wedding ring. I think I'll wear some nice perfume. I wonder if they really play music in the OR.
♫♫ Carrie
Best of luck, Carrie!! Let us hear from you when you are able!
♫♫ Absolutely. ♫♫♫♫ (Do you think I'm getting carried away with these notes?)♫
Hugs and prayers across the miles, Carrie. :)
Thanks!!! Cathy, I've just been singing to someone else about how wonderful no-till gardening would be for her - and here you are. I really feel hugged and cared for by this giant, extended DG family. Thank you all. ♫ Carrie
That would be gloria- Ms no-till, Cathy uses what ever works quickest and closest to hand. And does own 2 rototillers and uses them......LOL I also spray Bokashi or compost tea on stuff, so my microbes are doing just fine.
You might want to have a frank talk with your Dr about scaring the c--p out of you with that statement. Actually, the development of polyps in that area is fairly normal. The tissue it comes from has a tendency to be precancerous, it's not a given, however. I would also make it abundantly clear that you do have MS and therefore do not alway have the same reaction to medications as others! Just in case somebody missed the point!!!!
Carrie--hum to yourself for music. I do it when weeding, although sometimes I have trouble getting off "Sweet Betsy from Pike" and onto Gilbert & Sullivan. We are all for you. L
I thought, while the patient was in lala land , the MD had Pink Floyd or Mozart or whatever blasting on the speakers - I'm just curious, I don't plan to be conscious. And I have my own sound system in my head - too much music school will do that to you, or should I say for you?
Cathy, aren't you Ms. Wide-Row, though? I use mostly containers, so I'm in no position to come down on any side of that conversation.
I think the MD was saying 1. this polyp/tumor is at the seam of where I had my bladder sewn together already once. (1a. they don't do the type of surgery i had in 1987 any more!) 2. these polyps, that form in the bladders of people who have had this surgery 20 years ago, are all malignant - they're growing where they shouldn't be. they'll biopsy it, but it's a formality, because he knows what it's going to be because he's seen this situation before - a woman with MS who had this bizarre surgery last century turns up with these things in her bladder this century. BUT, I'll definitely ask.
Again, thank you everybody. I can't tell you how nice it is to have such a send-off! Maybe I'll have DH read this to me while I'm in Recovery.
xxx, Carrie
I would definitely be Wide-Row both in the garden and other areas we aren't going to talk about!! LOL Yeah, I think I would bring that up to him. Maybe he could introduce you to his other patients with those problems? Didn't do well in "bed side manner" evidently. Not real sharp on logic either.......give the boy That Sign!!! LOL
good thoughts will be with you.... and your friends waiting for your return... hugs and best wishes
Allison
I'm home! Eating food. Feeling ok. It hadn't changed from when he first saw it. That's very good news. I'm not sure what the next step is, but it feels much more feasible. Thank you, every one of you, for holding my hand today - it must have helped! I know it did. Thank you so much.
♫ Carrie
I am SO glad to hear you're doing ok!! Hugs, my dear! That's great news!
Thank you - I think so too! (From my own bed. . . .) ♫ Carrie
Welcome home Carrie!!!
Thanks, Lee Anne!
Really glad to hear you are well and snackin' away. Happy all looks well. :)
You made it!!!! So glad the surgery is over with and things sound like they are looking more positive. Happy to hear that you are home and eating and feeling OK! Eleanor