Sweet Interruptions: Suite 311

Following Cookie's baby butterflies passage and surprisingly, I do look forward to it. :D

Brother Ernie, you may have to baptize that machine!! I am ao sorry it has put a damper to your normal activities.

Good luck on your soy sales, Cindy. YOur soy candles last for a long time and smell so good.

Pegi, Lola isn't a very sociable dog. She doesn't know how to play with others, like your Mandy. Even the vet teck said Lola needs to be in doggie school.
I think the daddy needs to be retrained.

I am glad you are finally taken care of by the insurance company, Sue. Sucks when you don't have a dependable ride. How is Tom?

Susan, I agree with Karen. Until it happens, than you could thank Ker.
WHere in Malaysia are your landlords vacationing?
The dollar exchange there makes it a cheap place for vacation, unlike Singapore.
I think 1 us. is equivalent to four Ms.RinggitSo

So sis Kathy, I hope things will settle down more at your home before your planned big trip

Hello everyone, mentally not up to par. I need a circus clown in this house to scare my wits off!! Lol.
Trying my darndest not to sleep too much.

Waving to Kathy Kiz~~ LK~~~ Karen~~~ Barb~~~
Got an order for a cat quilt.. wish you all are here to push me.

Thank Ker? I don't think so......
btw - one of the company clients, when Bob did his work today, filled out an entire page on the great job Bob does for their company. The Big boss at ServiceMaster gave Bob a big "thumbs up". Bob's job is so very secure. With all the layoffs, he's one that Won't Be Laid Off :-)

Jaye it's not the machine that has me hampered it's that lousy diabetes that killed off my kidneys that causes me to need the machine. My other option was drive to town 3 times a week for a four hour treatment. A minimum five ttl hours shot 3 times a week. I am over the night club action so this is the best option I think. This form is easier on my body or so they told me when I was deciding what to do. I almost chose the do nothing route and that would have been nighty night by now according to my DR.

Susan I didn't think I would get the golden handshake award either at 64 but I did. I still smirk when I hear about the inventory losses they are still having.

Bob's 65 - but Ernie, please, allow me this little hope. With an upcoming 3rd move in 6 months, scolding from people in my neighbourhood because they don't see things the same way I do, I have a massive headache and will take faint hope where I can get it.......

Sorry Susan I didn't mean to give you a head ach. I just meant I undersood your position I was once there. You are prolly righ about Bobs tenure though.t. I would imagine the uppers at Bobs work know Kel is a Liar and are just unwilling to get rid of him but he won't go far.

I know Ernie - I'm just having a bad day.

that is what I am so afraid of, failing kidneys, brother Ernie.

Kelvin has finally did it. He left the house.

I am now in our Lord's hands as to my survival.

Thank you all for your prayers.

I hope he left you the truck the creep. Jaye get a good kidney dr now there are some things you can do to help your kidneys before they fail. I didn't know and a primary care dr is mostly for runny noses.

I hope he left you the truck the creep. Jaye get a good kidney dr now there are some things you can do to help your kidneys before they fail. I didn't know and a primary care dr is mostly for runny noses.

What a creep - he tried to push you out of your home, but now he's left - it's YOURS!
Will your MIL help?

My offer was and is sincere.

Jaye, I am glad he is gone, but I do hope you got some sort of transportation, and that he left you money for food and med supplies! Now you need to go and fill out paper work to get on any type of assistance you can! Food stamps, medicare? Since you are on your own, you should have no problem!

Would definitely seem to me you would qualify for disability, Jaye. Get cracking, it can take a while. Some churches have emergency help also.

My heart is heavy knowing you are alone Jaye. Can Ida help you at all? Does she have a car you can use? I'm praying so hard. Can you contact any of your church friends?

Hello family.
I thank you so much for the love you pour out for me, and praying that God ease my situation.

It was me that kicked him out of the house after a very ugly squabble.
He did his usual denial dance, treating me like I don't matter, and when he threatened again saying "It won't be long.. "
Well, I heard that tune enough, the threats to leave me and each time, I'd beg him to try to make 'it' work,
He didn't expect me to tell him that he doesn't need my permission to leave. When he didn't budge, I threw a glass of water at him, maybe that will expedite his departure?
I laughed when he said I'm no saint, with all the prayings I did.
Told him that even Jesus didn't act like a saint when He rightly got rid of the money changers at His temple.. so why can't I get rid of the devil in my presence.
He picked up his laptop, with only the shirt on his back, headed towards the door saying that's the last time I'll see him.
I did offer to move out of this house, but he told me it is mine.

Not my usual response, no tears. In fact, I remained calm, apologized only for the water, and told him to be safe on the roads.
Tabor City can hear the door slammed.

That night, my heart wasn't heavy at all. Lord was with me, and I talked to Jesus telling Him I am through, don't care what tomorrow holds, for I know He will be there for me.
And I said "Jesus, if Kelvin chose to return, make it YOUR will, not his. I can only pick myself up and I sure don't need satan's help."
I slept good that night, didn't even miss him.

I didn't show my surprise, nor pleasure, when Kelvin returned. I offered to pack his clothes and uniforms. He shook his head and apologized.
He looked like a lost sheep, and I have no sympathies for him and didnt' even ask where he had been.

Now I know why it took me this long for it is the right time. I have been finding more lies, and Kelvin' cannot remain that arrogant s.o.b, and blame everything on me. Whatever ugly things Kelvin wants to do to me, I told him, he better thinks twice, for I will be praying for karma to visit his bitch thrice, and him forever.
Yes I have a right to be pissed, just because I am dependant on him financially, he cannot treat me like a worm. I told him that even Cupcake makes sure she leaves some food for her son.
A man is supposed to provide for his family, apparently he lost his balls when he took up for the bitch.
Then I laughed inhis face that it's pathetic he cannot find anyone better than me, but a dumb chicken shit.. using his own words!! Boy was I on a roll!

Laid it out that being he's never home, I am getting use to the solitude.
Barb, don't let your heart be heavy sister. yes I am alone, but if he chose to permanently leave, I can be happy by myself.

Since God removed the ones that had been protecting Kelvin and the bitch at work and disclosed to the remaining others what a liar he is, I know he hasn't a single friend left.
Sad isn't it? But it's his fault. He can only give superficial friendship. So no one will take him, and his cousins? They all knew about his trysts. One worked at the prison, words get around. .
As for Ida, he rather be dead than live with her.
Bet he is finally aware of the damage he had caused and not having a bed to sleep in.

How am I feeling now? Not triumphant. For there are no winners in a war. But at least, I have made it clear to him that he is no longer numero uno in my life. I let it be known that though I still love him, I will move on, without him.

He has been telling me that he loves me, kept apologizing and showing his appreciation.
And that he'd call me from work.. he had never volunteered that.
I am expecting a slow painful return to the old Kelvin. As long as his bitch is still working on the same shift, the same crew.. he will still be tempted.

In the meantime, Jaye will depend on God's promises. I had been repeating the same mantra for more than a month,
."You, Kelvin Burnett Buffkin, I decree and declare that I am the child of the most High God. My Father is the creator and master of the universe. Therefore you shall have no power over me, in the name of Jesus"
Gosh, I feel good when I gave him his due, knowing He gave me the strength. Poor Kelvin, wish I had video taped that night!

Karen, I thank you very much for your offer. You have been saying that and it touched me so much.
Sue and Marion too offered the same.

For now, I will be okay. Kelvin's forced to restock the pantry, pay the utilities, and the only difference is he won't have a servant.

Good for you Jaye, you let him know you will no longer be his door mat. If he wants to come back it will be on your terms not his. You need to be financially cared for, and you need a reliable vehicle so you can go to church. That's the bare minimum.

I am proud of what you did JAYE, and I know that HE gave you the strength to do so.

My heart is lighter a bit now Jaye. I know it was Him beside you and Him that gave you the strength you needed. He knows when we are at the end of our tolerance and that is when He boosts us up. Footprints!!!! He saw yours.... Now you need this resolve you have found to stick to your guns. We are all behind you.. Love you Barb

Bravo!! I am so proud of you Sistah.
You keep the Faith and HE will stand with you in strength.

Sounds like you had a whole army of Angels when you stood up to him.

Love you Jaye,

I also am proud of you, dear Jaye.

Bravo Jaye - I too know how much courage it took to take him up on his offer to LEAVE, finally.
Love you, sistah!!

(((((Jaye))))) We're all here for you!!

Update!!

27 little chrysalides in two caterpillar condos. So in about 10 days we should have some beautiful Monarchs!

NICE - looking forward to seeing pictures! I love monarchs............ used to be just off the flight path of them, in Winnipeg, so we'd see Some of them.

When they migrate going south, they go right over our house. It is amazing to watch the sea of butterflies.

ohhh, soo far out! I can't wait!

Jaye remember storms ease towards daylight and then the calm opens to a bright sunny day as the storm blows it's self out. You to are now free to open to a sunny day. K is the loser and will always be so. He will hate to cook and clean for himself.The laundry will over flow and he will be sick by himself. The slut will abandon him and he won't find another. He will contually find himself saying Jaye did all this for me I never had to cook and clean Jaye did the shopping jay fixed my clothes Jay did and did for me and I lied to her and cheated on her and now she is gone and it's ALL MY FAULT. So you see Jaye what he has to look towards?

Speaking of storms we just had a doozey high winds broke down 500 power wires yesterday about noon. Some parts of the county are still with out power . Linda could not get milk or meat at Safeway today because they have to throw all the refrigerated stuff out. I would have thought that big store would have a generator for back up but nope. Vancouver BC 30 miles North has 500 thousand homes and business without power. WOW

In ten days we'll hold the first DG wine toast to the freedom of Cookie's butterflies!!! Might even pass it as a symbolic rebirth of your gal Jaye here! Lolol.

Had a good waking up session with a precious sistah who made me realise what a fool I have been.

All the time I have been saying that I don't want to bring anyone down and that's why I stayed away for some time.. the truth was.. I couldn't accept the fact that you all love me unconditionally. Even at my worse moments.
I had at one time been the giver, the rah rah gal, and sometimes your pain in the butt sistah.
When I can no longer be that, I really thought I am not worth the affections you gave me.
I am so wrong.
That sistah told me how she hurts that I only gave the best side of me to her, and held back the ugly part for I thought she can't handle that dark side.

It doesn't matter to me what your opinions of me are, what matters most is you believe that what I am going through isn't made up. See how low I have fallen?

Well this morning, I took the truck without his permission. Went to church, brought all of you with me, and a special prayer for a sistah's relative.
When the leader said his Amen.. I was still giving my petitions to the Lord!!! Good thing they waited for me at the altar!

He has been extremely polite. So many thank yous, and paying attention to Lola and willing to give the cats theri meds without any procrastinations.
Even took a mid day shower!! Lolol.

Your prayers, our Lord heard. Your prayers too gave me that strength and the conviction that I matter!
All done according to His time. Guess He wanted to make sure that I have all the ammunition to wipe the smirk off his asswipe face.

As to the monetary situation, it is made clear that he isn't hiding anything, but sincerely broke. When the bitch's husband left her, he had left her the house but she still has 10 years of notes to pay, plus her Cadillac and truck. Husband's paying child support to his sister who took care of their only son.
So, I am discovering that Kelvin had for TWO fricking years been helping her financially with the hopes that they'd move in together and they can share expenses. When he was stretched thin, with me having posession of the money, that's when he decided to kick me out.
He made loans to keep the fracas going, so she can stay afloat. It's when I still refused to leave, and thwarted his plans, plus Ida getting on him,.that's when the bitch begged her husband to return home, for Kelvin cannot borrow any more for his credit went south.
I know too now that the evenings he disappeared is really because he worked for a man that he had borrowed. In lieu of payments, he worked for free.
Sistahs and brother, he has fallen so low, and yet couldn't get around to be angry with her.
Put it this way.. house insurance isn't paid. Utilities two months behind. Credit cards (HIS) kept calling, found out that property tax isn't paid. The calls that I received aren't happy calls.
I am aware of three bank loans (my banking friend told me). Store in town too made me aware of his delinquency.
I won't starve, he will be eating more tube steaks..

Sistahs andf bro Ernie, I no longer give a shit whether they'd lock him up, but I am sure papers would be served. Yes, he is close to declaring bankruptcy, but he admitted he can't do that on acct. of his job.

At least the cats are eating now. If he were to drop dead from overworking, his insurance is paid. That he does diligently, and he showed me that.

I no longer find it unChristian of me to feel disgust and contempt for him, Though I love him, I realise that God made me NOT to be another human's doormat. To be willing to be victimised, is only insulting God for He made all His children AWESOME.
Especially those that fear and love Him

I laugh more today, didn't overmedicate myself for three nights now.

Thank you sisters and brother for believing me. But above all, thank you for loving me unconditionally.
We may not have the same DNA, but Lord knows you are blood to me.

Thank you brother Ernie, the sun found its way back in my heart!

Jaye, we will love you no matter what happens between you and Kel.

I am glad you took the truck and went to church, and thanks for the prayers.

Happy for you Jaye, I know the road isn't easy but you have more peace now. He has dug himself a serious hole, one he might not be able to climb out of.
We do all love you and are by your side always.

In my heart always Jaye. When I let you into my heart it truly is unconditional. Good, bad or anything else does not matter. It is your place there and always will be. Glad to "hear" you smile again.....

Jaye - dear Jaye - I wish I could be there to hug you, but you'll have to get it long distance. You've been separated into many parts - all parts in our hearts. I hope you feel that, because it's true :-)

Humbly receiving your unconditional love sistahs and brother.

Karen, I am so much at peace that I slept well with no artificial aids for the first time in two years!! It will take years of tube steaks before he sees the light! That is another reason why my truck isn't fixed.
He cannot afford to pay a shade tree mechanic just to replace ball bearings.

Yes Barb it is time to reclaim my smile! Giving you the widest smile that even the stars can't overshadow it!!

You are right Susan, pieces of me all over the map!! But happy pieces.

Very welcome LK, and we prayed for a painless journey, peace and strength.

Sistah Judy, thank you for not leaving me behind!! You are never far from my heart.

Special lurkers, my love include you too.

Brother Ernie, it's a wonder you haven't left us with all this boohoos I made!!! A man's perspective has been very helpful.

The good thing that came out of my pain is the cathartic poems. Gosh, he knew they are directed at him, yet still openly liked them!Thick skinned? I think he's just plain dumb!

This morning, Kelvin posted on FB songs as his way to apologize further. Only the ones he knows I love But guess what? Yep, I don't give a shit! Didn't comment but instead came up with a meme for my cover photo. What do you all think>
Yes, I did a sacrileous thing.. I use the S word!!! Loll.

Love to all and again, thank you!!!!!!!!!

I like that a lot.

Thanks LK.

I just finished another "blast".
Been liking that S word, but I think this needs it at the end!!
Here it is.

I just saw that on FB. :)

Hehehe.. I'm brave aren't I?

Just telling it like it is.

Kathy has the kitchen towel swap open.
http://davesgarden.com/community/forums/t/1404639/


Please pray for Thunders family. Her sons house burned last night. His wife is in the hospital. He is active duty, and the military is sending home ASAP!

Good thoughts and prayers for them all. Sincere hopes for everyone's safety and health.