۞ Sweet Interruptions ۞124

Happy Easter, sisters!

oh - Randall tuned in a great church broadcast on the drive over to my sister Lane's home. a really catchy tune of nothing but "Allelujah". Randall quips, "nice tune, but I think they've forgotten the words."

Easter Sunday is my favorite church Sunday all year. It was the time of year I could crank the organ up and go all out. don't miss Christmas services, too many and too stressful, or any other day, but I do miss playing at Easter. Dad teases me sometimes that's why I have a hearing loss now, cranking it up LOUD.

[it's been said - I'm the one that was saying it - it was my job as organist to get everyone ready to listen to the preaching, which meant NO music that would put you to sleep. that was the preacher's job! no one ever "meditated" much during my warmups or preludes!!!........a few were known to have tapped their toes, and heels, and snapped fingers along with my playing!]

Hello everyone..

I dont have much time to chat this afternoon but I wanted to wish you all a very Happy Easter today before I forget.
My inlaws are here and my sister just left out so I had a spare minute to sit down and wanted to check in..

Huggs to you all
Donna & Family

I am physically fine-thank you.

I am sorry-I am not in a very good place mentally right now-I hope you can understand. I am trying to dig myself out, but it is a slow struggle....it is an internal struggle and no one's fault, I would just prefer to deal with it on my own without affecting anyone else-I don't feel very nice right now to be honest, but I am trying to not let it affect DH if I can help it....please don't worry about me in the least. I will be back, it may just take me a bit to feel very conversational and friendly.

I still love you all, but as I am sure that you have felt like this at least once in your life, hopefully you can understand. The last thing I want right now is to be around anyone, and while we don't have a physical connection, we do have a deeper emotional connection that is in a lot of ways is harder when you feel like this. When you are around someone that maybe your whole relationship hasn't evolved around conversations, you can lie to them or at the very least pretend to make the situation better, but when your whole intertwined existence simply relies on matters of the head and heart, it is substantially harder.

It will be hard enough to be at MIL tomorrow for a late Easter dinner. I have been reading a lot, listening to a lot of music and watching a little TV. I have discovered the Twilight series and have read all 4, plus the partial draft of another version of the 1st book several times, a well as several others. Just trying to escape I guess until I can get a hold of my self.

I will be back, have no doubt, but until I can feel the light as well as the dark side of my self, I will not be a healthy part of anything. All I feel now is black and gray. There are no other colors to me right now.

Hello everyone. Hope you all have a great easter celebration.
Thank you Kim for popping in and the well wishes! I love you too and I got early blooms on one of the BSVs that I overwinter in the GH. Got them outside today.

BJ, tell Michael, Americans do it better!!! Lol!!! That's what I told my "European" family when they're shock over how we do all our holidays in grand style here, even halloween!

Dusty, I don't think I have the courage to face what you had, and I'm glad I'm too old to be conscripted if military duty becomes mandatory. God bless you for carrying all those young men still in your heart...

I agree Bonnie, we need to make a lot of cheery, joyful noise in church not only for Easter!! This is my opinion.. I'm not used to the fire and brimstone preaching styles of this part of NC preachings.. but Lord isn't ALL about doom and gloom. Primarily salvation, and that should make us happy campers, right?

Trisha, I bet your cooking's very much appreciated!! Wish I was there.

Have fun with your company Cindy.

Maid M!!! Did the Easter bunny bring you more fabrics???

Hugs back Donna.

Taking a breather.. moving on to a VIP niece..

Stacey,if you ever need to talk i'm here.It's not good to keep it bottled up.So please if you can talk to some one sweetie it will help.

Jaye, what company? It's jusy Rick and I.


I finished packing my craft swap, working on finishing a gift for Deborah & Riley, next will finish windchime and all will be ready to mail on Tuesday.

Happy Eater to each and every one of you!

I have not been around for awhile, but I did want to pop in to say a special "Thank You" to Jaye for the lovely Easter card--I was touched by your wonderful remembrance! I had a great visit with Donna yesterday and came home with quite a few new plants! Been busy today in the gardens getting some semblance of organization.

I FINALLY!! found a job after a year of not working and job hunting with a sign company that has a new owner---on't know how long he will keep it--it is a Franchise that has had 3 owners in less than a years time, but it is $$'s right now and at 61 yrs old, the economy the way it is, I feel blessed to have this opportunity--maybe I can be instrument in making it succesfull

I will try to post as I can but keeping up with you chatty ladies is going to be difficult! LOL!!

Prayers to all in need and wishing all the best !!

Linda

I hope everyone have a great day.I had my baby for 6 hours today.So during that time i was the happest person around.Now i'm depressed,i called to check on my baby and he gets on the phone almost crying saying mama i want to come home to you.That is all he would say.I told him he would be home in a few days.He was up set that he would not tell me he loved me.All he was saying mama i want to come home to you.I told him that i missed he and loved him before he got off.Then after i got off the phone i bust into tears.

Linda.. AMEN!!! Don't disappear please, now you have to keep us informed on how your new job is.

(((((((((((((Stacey)))))))))))))

Thank you for showing yourself. You don't have to explain yourself, but thank you for sharing with us what you're facing.
Yes, we all have at one time, and some of us more, faced these demons that will try to wreak havoc on our 'up' psyche.
I see nothing but positive healing for you Stacey. You're analytical in your thinking, and a problem solver.. and I know you'd soon find a way to bring back those colors to your life.
As you have many a time cajoled other ladies here to rant, rave.. but never hide... I'll say the same for you. I can easily say we are all here for you.. no matter what!! Our turn to say.. everything will be alright. NO B/S (sorry Lord..)

I will continue to pray for you dear one.

Cody, call me sweetie.. we need to cry together!!

Lisa, I hope you didn't have Easter all by yourself at the hotel.

Sorry Cindy.. I truly thought you might have Ricky's kids over.. duhhhhhhhh!!

I'M CALLING YOU NOW.

LOL, Rick's daughter did call and tell him Happy Easter, (but not me) and that she may drop by tomarrow. His stepdaughter is suppose to come up on Friday. She said it would only be her, but I know she'll call April ( Rick's daughter) and then they'll probably invite some friends too. I'm leaving on Wed.(15th) going to stay with my mom until Mon (20th). I will be helping her with figuring out monies for the bowlers to receive at the banquet. Plus I will be gathering up my roses and fish (hundreds of them) to bring back home with me.

Cody, if I was you and my baby said that I would be over there in a New York second getting him. For him to cry like that must mean he is not happy there. That is not good for little ones like that. Sorry don't mean to be harsh, but I don't like hearing children crying for their mom's. Do you know what goes on when he is over there?

Cindy,i would be over their in a heartbeat.I can't get him because it is court ordered when his dad is home.I don't know what goes on over their.All i can do is hope and pray that my baby is being taking care of.Yes,it kills me to know my baby wants me.My heart is full of pain because of that.

Jaye,thanks for the talk and making me laugh a little.Love ya!!!!!

Gosh, we both need the talk! Thank you Cody..

My hurt is reallly reallyyyyyyyyyyy insignificant.

Easter service this morning was great, until we had to go to Kel's parents for Easter fare. SIL had brought this grand feast-- all store bought---- and all sugary sweet. Honey baked ham, sweet potato dish--- carrot cake.
All I had to eat was two tbsp. of garlic mashed potatoes. No apologies were given.. and I truly felt the insult. So, I know where I stand in their scheme of things.. the bottom end of their totem pole.
But I refused to let the devil claim victory, instead, I thank her for bringing the food.
When we left, I let Kel know how I felt and how hurt I was that he was in fact, enjoying the sugary ham!!!!

But coming home and reading Synda's poem, brought me back to Jesus' hurts.. and how He loves us so much that His sacrifice should make our problems seem so miniscule. Thank you Synda for posting that. God doesn't promise that our lives on earth are strife-free.

And Cody.. I don't want you to hurt by yourself. Call me anytime!!

As for Kel.. he just said I shouldn't be insulted as we did have great Easter feasts that had started Friday!! Lolol!! Then we also had a great Easter breakfast after sunrise worship at Shoney's!!!
He kinda redeemed himself greatly when he promised more fabric.. clay...plants...

Does he cry when he has to go to his dad's?

Yes,Jaye we did.Thanks i will,that is why love you.Because we understand what each other is going through.That is why i love you because you are very sweet and understanding.

NO.I'm thinking it may be because he has been away from me since Thrusday morning and he was with me today knowing he had to go back to his dads.I will come home Tuesday.Some times i get lucky and he comes home on Mondays and i wish he was this time.

Not to be nosy but how often does he go to his dad's. Every time I read it seems like he is always with his dad.

His dad works offshore.He is gone for 14 days and home for 14 days.He come home on a wednesday and the baby goes on a thursday until the fellowing Tuesday.He has him for 10 days and i get him for tuesday and wednesday between the ten days.Another words he gets him 5 days one week and 5 days the second week with me getting two days in between.I don't won't him to be gone that long away from me,but the lawyer i had at the time didn't explain to me.So after that i fired him.

Well, the kids are all gone home... and nobody here got their feelings hurt too bad... except me... but I didn't let it show while they were here. She's 15, and I refuse to let her see that she has that power over me.

On the up side... I fixed a ham today... rubbed in brown sugar, then drizzled honey on it before I baked it... (sorry, Jaye)... OMG, it was so good. I also made a potato salad this morning, and a fresh fruit salad. I boiled some black eyed peas with bacon, and some brown and serve rolls. I thought everyone was going to bust... but then they ate the banana pudding... all gone.

I sent 2 brugs home with my DIL... and some Datura. My son fell in love with the brugs when he saw them... and my DIL loved the daturas... so, they got some of both... NOW, we'll see if they keep them alive... Don and I have money on the table.

After they left, I managed to get a few peat pots of blanket flowers, and purple cone flowers planted... but then I started just walking around looking at everthing, and forgot what I was going to do next... then it got dark... oh, well... there's always tomorrow.

Cody... how long has this arrangement been going on with your son being shifted back and forth? I know kids that were way too young to be going through that, having a hard time with it in the beginning. You'd think judges would take into account the child's age before they order such a thing. I do hope you're son adjusts to it... cause if he doesn't, and he stays upset for an extended period of time... it can cause long standing emotional problems.

Jaye... good for you... if you let them know they upset you, they win. Don't let them know that. Next time... bring your own plate dinner from home, and set it on the table to eat... let them know that you don't trust that they'll have anything you can eat when you're invited for dinner. Maybe they'll get the message then.

Well...Don got his tummy full, and went to take a nap as soon as everyone left. Poor baby, he's got to get up at 4am to go to work... I think I'll just let him sleep... except, he's still fully dressed... 'cept his shoes.

Well... guess I better go see what Mike's up to... he was getting kind of bored a while ago, and I had to find something for him to do... maybe, now that it's dark... we'll find a movie to watch.

BJ,he has being doing that since he was 3 months old.They also have two girls together.He got her preganat when i was 3 months preganat.

It's dark there already? Geez we still have about an hour of daylight, and I'm just now getting ready to take the ham out. So I guess I will say......................


Good Night all my wonderful Sistahs ^_^

nite nite Cindy

Jaye,my Nuccio's Gem Camellia bloomed.

Hello everyone. Sounds like ost of you had a Great Easter! it was quiet here. I made baskets for the neighbor girls, and for Dad's caregiver's girls. He loves to give them little things like that!

Stacey, so glad to see you popped in. We all miss you, and will be patiently waiting to see you back online real soon.
You have several of our numbers, so when you feel like talking, please call one of us!

((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Cody, I know it is hard on all of you having to share your baby. I had to share mine for about 1 & 1/2 years, before the oldest one finally spoke up, and told me he did not want to see his Dad anymore. His Dad and I came to an agreement, with out the courts, and it worked out fine!
Just give it time, and it will all work out.

Good night everyone! Sleep tight.


LK

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!! I hope everyone had a great Easter.

I wanted to come online earlier but it was raining so hard my satellite internet would work for a few minutes, then we'd get a downpour and it would stop, then the downpour would end and it would come back, then another downpour and it would stop, so I just said forget it! I ended up planting seeds in seed trays, cleaning house a bit, went to the grocery store, Dave got up and I talked to him while he was cooking dinner and got ready for work, then he left and now I'm here for a few minutes lol!

Thanks LK,it's hard but i'm trying my best.
Good night.

ahhhh. what topics for an Easter. Our Lord knows when things make our hearts heavy. I'm praying for healing of the minds and hearts here.

bj is right, Cody. my kids went back and forth from the ages of 5 and 8. I put 3k miles between us - to keep me safe. made it hard on the kids, they had all day flights to make.

The hardest thing I've ever done in the world was to put on a happy face, tell them they were going to have fun on their visit, and keep that going until they were out of sight down the gangway. Never believed it for a moment. Never knew if they'd come back, ever. he tried 5 times to keep them once he had them. It was court ordered, and my lawyers warned me over and over I might lose them if I didn't honor it. his shenanigans cost us our life's savings twice.

When it's court ordered, and they really do want to see their dad, it's wrenching to you if they start fighting it, or whining to come home. you won't know, until something bad has already happened, or until they are old enough to refuse to travel and defy both of you and the courts, whether or not you are doing the right thing. As long as they are not in physical danger, leave it up to the Lord. we said prayers together for a safe journey and a safe visit, and then I kissed them goodbye, smiling, while I held my breath for all summer, every summer.

found out, now they are grown, that those visits weren't much fun. lots of friction with their steps. But they got to know and love their dad, at least for a while. Best of all, I came away knowing I'd done what I could to ease it for them. It's so much easier for them to go if they know you are OK with it.

Cody,
As your baby gets older, you may find something that commonly happens: when it's about time to go, he'll pick a fight with you, over, well, nothing. Found out, it's easier emotionally for them to leave if they are mad!

Ex never stopped fighting. [I left that battlefield a long time ago. had to, to move on.] Don't like talking about it, but find the lessons I've learned help others. with my psych degree, did all the research I could, including how to handle step situations. The library had a lot of helpful books. One I found very useful was written by the kids of divorce. (no one still living in my family had ever been divorced, so I couldn't ask family)

Whatever you do, don't let yourself, or anyone else use them as weapons against you, side step that one as best as you can. For me, this was accomplished by steeling my emotions.

Don't help yourself or others push them to "take sides." that's the God awfullest thing to do to the babies. when they are older, they will rebel with major emotional problems from that, just like bj said.

my greatest resource of knowledge was, when I remarried when Bevin was 11 and Danny was 9, my new MIL !! She was an only child, from South Dakota, but had 22 step and half brothers and sisters! oh, how her knowledge helped me cope!

Good Evening everyone......had a great day.....re-arranged moms living room after dinner so she is happy now...

Ate way too much......time to get back into My routine....

My brain is not here tonight....so talk to you later.

Bonnie,it's killing me knowing my baby is wanting me,but yet he is the one suffering for it.I don't understand people,how they want to make the kids suffer.Yes,he really hurts me to know he is wanting his mama,but he is the one who is paying the price.I just wish men could see that.How can people want to make kids suffer like that.Do they think it's funny?I don't think it is one bit funny when it comes to kids.My ex is the kind of person who loves to hurt me,and doesn't care what the baby is going through.Only if men knew what it was like to carry a child for nine months and bond with it.Then i don't thank they would put kids through that kind of hell.

I had typed a lengthy chatter and it went poof!!!
I guess it's the Lord's way to tell me let go of the little things and let HIM!!!
Thanks BJ.. it's certainly easier to succumb to the flesh, got up and give them a piece of our minds.. but we are made of better stock!!

Cody, I'm sure after reading your old aunts' postings, you got some comfort from them. Be wise my dear, do everything legally.. AND don't forget what is the strongest weapon.. and that's prayers.
BTW, you need to post that cute pic of Alex here!

Crissy, it's projected to rain the next few days here, and the ground's hardly dried from the previous week's downpour. Well at least my straw bales will be primed!!

LK, I bet your dad had so much fun helping you select the pressies. Did you make a basket for him too?

Bonnie, pass on any wise advice your MIL has that you think will help us here! I can only thank my MIL for carrying Kel full term.. and that's saying enough :D

This road sign was taken at Lake Martin, in Breaux Bridge, La.. where I used to live. All the while living there, I could only catch glimpses of one 'gator.. but never on the road.. always snooping on some nutras!

Trisha!!! I can't believe food is your achilles' heel! Lol!!
Rest well for the night, we'll catch up with you tomorrow!!

Jaye,all i can do is PRAY,PRAY,PRAY everyday and stay STRONG for my baby.

Yea,that's gator ville alright.

Good night Trisha.

Love the gator picture.....may need to send that one to our bicycle club....tell them they don't have it bad at all here...!!!!!!

Have a good night all...........

Cody, I'm gonna tell you to rest well tonight.. take some Benadryl if you must.. and tomorrow will be another day closer for Alex to come home.

Good night ladies..

Good night Jaye,sleep well.