Hello Everyone,
I'm going to try to explain where I am without totally being confusing.
I have been chasing my tail every single day sending out resumes, filling out online applications, going to interviews, testing for staffing agencies. Then I have Jess home all day until school starts September 2. Then hubby comes home and we have been walking 2 to 3 miles a night.
I have been feeling SO overwhelmed by the smallest things lately. I'm not sure if it's the Chantix I'm on or what but it seems like everything is overwhelming to me. So I have been trying to take a "time out", pick up the crochet hook and just try to get things in order.
We received notice from the electric company that they are increasing our rates big time which has led me to the conclusion that I can't have a light stand running all day anymore. So, I have slowly but surely been giving babies away left and right. I know in my heart that it's going to be a HUGE adjustment for me to work full time again and I'm going to have at least a 45 minute commute everyday (each way) and trying to keep up with the amount of plants that I have is going to be nearly impossible. Thus, I am keeping the ones in larger pots as they require less watering and parting with the ones that are in 3 oz cups etc. Some are so small though that I won't be able to mail them as they are seedlings etc. and I know I'm going to have to trash them so that has been heavy on my brain.
I have been in incredible pain with my back but think I figured out what was causing it. I was sleeping on top of the comforters and they bunched up during the night causing major back pain. Only took me a month to figure it out.......guess I won't be a rocket scientist when I grow up. *lol*
Because I haven't had a minute to even call my own, I have not had a chance to take pictures or catch up here at all. I'm so sorry everyone. Please know that I am OK and that I am always lurking when I get a chance but I know that I'm going through something right now and it's going to take some adjusting. I'm overwhelmed with all the changes that are going to take place in my life but I'm accepting it slowly but surely. When I am scared, nervous, overwhelmed etc. I tend to "retreat" for a while until I feel safe, secure and confident again. Sorry but it's how I cope.
Going to close here as I have tears in my eyes and I don't want my makeup to run as I have to leave for an interview in 15 minutes.
I love you all so much!!
((((( Hugs )))))
Kimber
Hello My Friends
Hey Kimber,
Real proud of you honey. Thanks for "remembering" us here BUT we are not the important ones in your life. Isn't it funny sometimes how GOD puts our priorities smack in front of our faces and then we have decisions to make that really aren't that hard in the first place. Sounds like you're really busy and prioritizing is always the smart thing to do especially when you're in "survival mode"! I remember that from college when I was working full time, started back for my BS in nursing and then had two little ones while I did it. I joked that I could breast feed a child in one arm and type on my laptop with the other, then switch!! That was 12 years ago. No way could I do that now, but know God put me there and helped me through it and he will you too.
A 45 minute commute could give you time to listen to a good CD or book. Talk about retreating...I totally know what you mean. You have to do that sometimes so you can figure things out on your own and then realize...I (Kimber) did pretty darn good!
You might report some of your feelings to your pharmacist or MD, especially if they have been occuring since you started the Chantix.
Oh my, 2-3 miles a night...girl, you are inspiring me.
Take care,
Laura
Awww Kim,Its a relief to hear from you..Reading your words made my heartache that none of us are living closer to you for support..I am sad for you sweetie with all you are having to endure right now but also just happy to know you are still alive..lol...been worried silly girl..Its easy to understand you feeling overwhelmed...they always say things have a way of working themselves out..they really do..even tho it might not seem like it right at this moment.. I am happy you figured out what was causing the back pain..I know suffering with pain like that its hard to cope with life in general when you wake up in such pain..Good luck with your interview..things will work out you just wait and see...I sent you a dmail too...
{{{Big Hugs}}}
Nancy
Hi Kim;
Know you are in my prayers that things get a little easier on you. & do that the good lord does things for a reason, right now you might not understand, but in time i think you will.Leave it all in his hands & he will take care of it, i know that sounds kind of stupid, but he really does. also when i quit smokeing , did it for 50 years, i got down on my knees, & prayed he would help me as i did not think i could do it, even with chantix, but after 2 weeks i did it & it has never bothered me since.so he does hear us.Good luck with all thats changing in your life & remember things will get better as nothing ever stays the same.
mrsbonnie
Kim, I'm sorry to hear of your trouble. I will keep you in my prayers and hope you feel better, and maybe find a job closer to home. Keep your chin up. My mom always said:
"When a door closes, another one opens with good things".
Check in with us every once in a while to let us know how you are doing.
God bless.
Hi Kim,
I am so happy you posted an update for us!! I'm not happy that your going through so much right now but I have been missing you here and now I am comforted to know what is happening with you!
I wish I could send that same comforted feeling to you and I do hope the out pouring from the many friends you have here brings you some! You just catch up with us when you can and know that we are thinking of you daily and wishing you all the best with your various struggles. It WILL get better!
I'm with Sempervi on using your commute time for a good book or music you enjoy ..... I listen to audio books on the long drive to the city that I have when I go and it really makes the time fly!
Two to three miles a day! Good for you!! Your going to fade away to nothing! ^_^
Big Hugs, Brenda
Kim,
Have you thought about putting up shelves by the windows?This way you don't need lights.
You can keep the bigger plants by the windowsills and have maybe one light setting for the younger plants or seedlings.
I just got a thin plank of wood and some cheap holders and placed on my windowsills. They don't need lights and are doing very well.
(and the windowsills look great with plants)
I hope you feel better soon.
big hugs
Aww Kim,I think you need a big hug.
(( Hugs to you from all your friends on the AV forum ))
You all are just the sweetest sistas anyone could ask for!!!
I am grateful to have met you all!!
Things are just so crazy right now and so many things changing daily that I just can't seem to keep up.
I thank you all for the wonderful suggestions and plan to burn a few CD's for the travel.
I have gone from having no interviews to having one every day *lol* Now it's just deciding which one to take.
Tomorrow I go for an interview at the hospital......could be interesting.
Today's interview was very promising too and then the temp agency called and asked if they could fax my resume to an internet provide that needs a billing rep/customer service person.
We are taking off Saturday for a 4 1/2 hour ride (one way) to look at a 2 year old full bred Siberian Husky (it's 3 against 1 here so I am giving in *lol*). Ought to be interesting. Never a boring day.
Hugs to you all!
Kim
Oh Kim ... I am so glad you found a minute to check, we have all been thinking about you!
Hang in there gal ... things will get better! Don't worry about plants and growing ... there will always be time for that down the road again! I so agree with what everyone else has been saying. You need to concentrate on other stuff right now. When you do get settled into your new job maybe you can have a pretty plant, sitting on the corner of your desk ... not necessarily a finicky bloomer, just something green and growing to cheer up your workspace!
I haven't worked in a long time and I've even found it overwhelming trying to grow so many plants so I have downsized and made up my mind that life is just too short to have to worry about plants! If I see a pretty bloomer that I feel I can't pass up on buying, I will buy it but I am not going to get upset if it kicks the bucket! Too many other things to worry about. A year or so ago I had about 75 AV's plus a few Chirita's, a few Episcia's, and other things on lighted stands. It just became way too much. I worried if I took a few days to go visit one of my sisters that my plants would all die. No more! I don't want to be tied down and not enjoy life because of plants!
Can't wait to hear about the new job when you get it. Now, it might be interesting working in a hospital, depending on the department. My oldest sister has been in insurance for 36 years and will be retiring in another year but wants to work part time in a hospital. She thinks it would be great working in an ER, like where they check the patients in and take all the information! Not me ... I don't think I could handle that area of dealing with injured or ill people. I have no patience and would be yelling at the Dr's and Nurses to see the patients quicker! LOL.
I hope you know that we are all thinking about you and keeping you in our prayers.
((((( Hugs ))))) & Blessings,
Lin
Hi Kim! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It has been a really long time since I have been able to check in, and for many of the same reasons you listed.
I am ALWAYS thinking of you and wondering how you are! Obviously, an update is in order.
{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}} from Virginia and all my love and prayers to you girl!
Hang in there, and remember....
When you ask God for strength,
He delivers something for you to be strong for.
When you ask God for patience,
He delivers something for you to need patience for. (like kids!)
When you ask God for courage,
He will give you the reason to be courageous!
I know this, because I stopped running, and started listening!
Love you girl!
Karen
OMG Karen, is that you? Where have YOU been girlfriend? Talk about being missed..........OMG you have been SO missed!!!
It's SO wonderful to see you and I'm SO glad you posted!!
I am sitting here at 5:00 (can't sleep, nervous about the interview today) this morning pouring over everything you have all written and I can't tell you how much comfort it brings me. So many things you have all given me to think about. I really can't thank you all enough. My only "real life" friend is my hubby. So I honestly can't tell you how much it means to me that you ladies are all here and have such comforting "arms" (words) and such wisdom to share. I truly can't tell you all how special that is to me. When I say that it brings tears to my eyes, I mean it literally as I am very sensitive and you all have a way of "touching" my heart.
Lin, you always make me feel better and find the positive when I have a plant that dies or when I come to the realization that I have to part with alot at a time. Thank you for that. Sometimes I forget that they are just plants and not people *lol*. I have to remember what is really important. I have truly made these plants a part of my life so parting with them is difficult but I know it needs to be done. Many of you have offered to adopt them and although I appreciate the offer, almost 2 shelves are seedlings that just won't survive shipping. I think I have found an adoptee for all the AV's and I mailed out alot of the streps (I think I still have like 40 left but I'm holding on to them along with the chirita and nematanthus for as long as I can). I am going to really try to get the shelf organized and start removing trays this weekend and I will know better what I have. I know that I'm going to have to keep whittling these numbers down as there is just no way I can keep them all. Once I get a little more organized, I will know better what I needs homes. I can't seem to find it in my heart to part with any of my chirita or nematanthus though. I know they aren't the best bloomers but they "speak" to me and they told me that no matter what they are going to make it through this *lol* I pick up a plant and start thinking of what to do with it but then always find some reason why it can't go *lol* Last weekend my neighbor came over and I filled the floor of her caravan totally full of plants. She was so excited. So I am beginning to see some light but there is still alot to be done.
Can you all see my desk when I get a job? Wall to wall gessies *lol* I just am not going to propagate and hybridize anymore. Once I collect the seedpods that I already have going, I'm just going to cut old bloom stalks off from now on. It's just too much and I'm not going to grow out the seeds anyway so why put the plant through that?
Maybe someday, when I get a little further down this path that life is leading me and I have time to nurture this passion again I will take up hybridizing and propagating again but for now I think a break is in order for me. I will certainly be checking in here and there when I have time and will always love adoring pictures of everyone's beautiful blooms ^--^
Always,
Kim
Kim ... I think the plan God has for you in the coming days is something to embrace. Even though you will be working full time, in a way you may just feel like you've gained some freedom! Life is funny like that sometimes.
I hope once you do get settled into your new job, your hubby and kids will help share with the chores at home. At times kids and husbands take moms/wives for granted BIG TIME ... they just get so used to everything being done for them i.e. cooking, cleaning, laundry, feeding PET(s), etc.
Hopefully you won't hear any whining about being out of toilet paper or no food in the house, or "Mom, where's my ____ (whatever.) LOL. As women I think it's just in us, that we can handle many things at once, but the fair thing is for family to share the load.
My husband still doesn't understand how I can drive and eat at the same time! He has never been able to do that. But, then again, he's never had a child in one arm while putting laundry in the machine with the other, or a child on one hip while preparing a meal! Most women are good at multi-tasking ... just part of who we are. But, sometimes we need and deserve a break!
So .... You go girl! Just never forget that when life starts to get complicated and feels like it's closing in on you ... take TIME for you! If that means just finding a corner to curl up with a good book, meeting a friend for a quick cup of coffee, locking the bathroom door, filling the bathtub with bubbles for a nice long relaxing soak ... or taking a long weekend to get away from the daily headaches of home and work - DON'T hesitate! And, DON'T feel guilty!
I don't necessarily mean you have to leave the family behind but I know you have a teenager in the house and I know it's hard for teenagers to be away from their friends, even a weekend seems like forever to them! But even getting away as a family for a few hours is invigorating ... a change of scenery, even if only for a few hours!
Just know I'm thinking about you and wishing you all the best in the job hunt. Keep us posted on how it's going and I hope you find a job that you really like!
((((( Hugs )))))
Lin
Oh Kim
I wish I could read all the things the Ladys have told you but I am just so tired from work but I saw that you are taking chantix I was so depressed and stressed out and sick from it that I stoped I still smoke. I would cry at the least thing they is a form on Daves hear about people taking Chantix
I have tried all kinds of thing and I think that the best is to go cold turkey all that other stuff makes you sick as a dog I was taking 1/2 of a 1/2 of the chantix and it made no different
Thing will get better you just have to take 1 day at a time
Good Luck Maybe when I get layed off we will be able to talk more
Take care
Hugs
Kim (AKA) Dimmer
Kim, I can identify with you - I've been trying to decide if I want (or can cope) with continuing to teach. I get overwhelmed by my family dramas (husband on chemotherapy, daughter in prison over drugs, divorced son moved home, paper work at school becoming worse and worse, etc...), work responsibilities and trying to finish my Master's degree. I don't have children at home (except the30 year old and his daughter who lives with us every other week) but I am learning that I have to ask or demand help as my family is used to my doing everything. It's okay to feel overwhelmed, that's a signal to start examining your priorities. I'm still re-examining priorities. In the meantime, don't suffer alone!!! Obviously you have friends that will understand as you drop in and out. So, no guilt, drop in when you can (and need to) and in the meantime I'll be holding you and family in prayer. May God give the peace that passes all understanding, may He bless the work of your hands, may He prosper you and yours in every way.
Jackie
This message was edited Aug 24, 2008 9:47 AM
Because I haven't been on Dave's much , I missed your entire thread, Kim!. I, too, tried the Chantix and it made me 'crazier' than I already was. You might want to check with your Dr.
Think about you often and know that you have such conflicting feelings about full time work. I just can't carry that many burdens around on my shoulder and hope you (and all of us) will reread Karen's poem. I always want to be in control but deep down I know that I really have no control at all............God is always Good.
Let us hear from you and I won't miss your thread next time!
I just opened my daily Inward/Outward email and here is today's message. Had to come back and share:
By James Thurber
All men should strive to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why.
Source: “The Shore and the Sea,” Further Fables for Our Time
Kim,
I have not been on much and I agree with Gail, CALL your doctor that stuff made me also more crazy I know that is hard to believe but so true.... Finally after my husband woke me up 3 nights in a row sobbing about the dreams I was having I had to go off... I would rather smoke then be crying one min. laughing the next... High on life one min. then in the dump the next... GO OFF IT...
Ok on a nicer note... I to tend to go to my room or someplace where people are not when I get very stressed... I tend to not be here on DG's and I talk to my plants or my animals and not people... as people talk back and at times you really don't want to hear what they have to say.. Good or bad... So girl take your time and a deep breath and come back when you can... BUT don't worry we will all be here when you need us as we all can't afford AAA for AV's so where else would we be... We love ya girl.. Tomorrow is always a new day...
Love and Hugs,
Susan
Good Morning My Friends,
Well, this is week 4 already and I can't believe I still haven't found a job.
I did my job search yesterday and there wasn't really anything new (I did apply for one job but sure hope they don't call *lol*) and I was just really having one of those days where everything bothered me.
I looked at the plant stand and everything was dry as a bone. I felt so overwhelmed.
I decided to call the lady who was the president of the AV club when I was a member and asked her if she would please come over and take everything off my hands. Luckily she was with another lady from the group so it was the 3 of us.
We totally cleaned off the shelf and I sent everything I could get my hands on with her. I kept a few things for another week or two so that I can see if cutting down is what I needed to do or if getting rid of everything is a better a route. She is going to call me next week to see what I want to do.
So I sit here this morning saying......."I shouldn't have sent _____", "I should have kept ________" but in all reality, I know it was the best thing for me to do.
She's going to take the plants with her to the NH meeting as there are alot of gessie growers there and also to the Maine meeting. Anything that is left over will be donated to an Assisted Living home. I already feel so much lighter and having less responsibility for me right now is the right thing to do. If/when I'm ever ready for plants again, I will order them rather than try growing from leaf etc. but that won't be probably until I retire someday *lol*
For now I need to keep it simple.
I've been on the Chantix for 2 months so I'm nearing the time to get off it (3 months). We're not smoking so it's working and the only side effect I feel is a stomach ache if I take it on an empty stomach. I don't know if it's causing me mood problems though as I am very happy really. I think right now it's just alot of changes all at once and I had too much on my plate. For the first time in a long time I need to focus on me and get back to work and start feeling like a contributing member of society *lol* I got very obsessive/compulsive with plants and I hate it when I get like that. I couldn't even see it until it was too late and I was overwhelmed. I already feel so much better this morning. Yes, I miss having all of them and some I miss more but for NOW, where my life is and headed, I know it's the right thing to do.
I can't thank you all for your kind words and advice. It has really helped me alot. You are all such wonderful ladies and I feel blessed to have met you.
Love Always,
Kim
Morning Kim,
I to tend to be obsessive/compulsive in many things in life but I have to say when my son went to war I went to a very good head doc as I really thought I was going to the looney bin... She helped me in so many was and I am not saying I am happy my son went to war but it made me a better person and a much stronger one... Compulsive made me buy almost any plumeria I could get my hands on... is why at one point I had over 100 of them now I am down to a mer 80 or so...LOL These are slowly going to leave my home but I want to see them bloom before I send away... these grow into trees and I already have several in 25 gallon pots that needs dolly's to get them back into the house for winter... God bless basements and no kids living at home anymore so I really do have the space just don't want the broken back from them.. ^_^
I am very happy you are doing what you need to do for yourself... A job will come... I was a stay at home mom until my youngest son went in to first grade then I took a job at a grocery store... I liked it but somehow I always felt like this is not me... Then my FIL died and MIL was just tore apart .. never wanted to go back to there home as he stuck her in the boon docks and she did not drive so long story short my MIL lives with us... She has allot of medical problems but I told her right up I would not promise down the road not to put her in a nursing home... I did that with my Mom and it almost cost me my life in more ways then one... So I then went back to work at the grocery store... Mary came down with cancer of the breast soon after... I quite my job to tend to her...Felt like a very bad person for telling her I would put her in a home.....Well God works in very strange ways at times Kim... Mary slept in my king size bed for 6 weeks until she was back on her feet and I tended to her every need as this is what I do in life I am a care giver.. Then after Mary was very well and very back on her feet my cat got sick and I had several who got the same virus so I was going back and forth to the Vets... She asked me one day did you find a job yet???? I said no but you know how it is, I have to be home to get the bus and then make them there dinner and there are not many jobs out there to let me do this... She said I have to drive into to town the same as you have to meet the bus and would you want to work for me 3 days a week say from 8:30 -9:00 ish or when ever your boys get on the bus??? and leave say at 2:30 ish to go into to town or home in your case to pick up our kids ... I said I don't know what to do and she said yes you do... You love animals and you are caring and thats half of the learning... So this is a book I know but God gave me a job then I quite it and then God blessed me with a job I love and still am there for the past 14 or so years... So your job will come when you least expect it but it will come... Ok end of book... Hope you did not mind some of the story of my life... We are alike in many ways I believe and a few others here are also...
Smile Girl we love you and so does God.
Hugs,
Susan
This message was edited Aug 26, 2008 7:56 AM
Wow Susan, what an inspirational story......really touched my heart. What an amazing lady you are!
We all are so much alike in so many ways. Maybe that's what makes us all so close.
I know that the right job will come along. I just need to accept that it's not going to be on my terms *lol*
This morning I pulled out the stand and vaccuumed really good. I washed the windows inside and out, the window sills and even took down the curtains. I have so much room in there now and the sun is shining so brightly through the windows. As much as I loved all my plants, they blocked alot of the light that comes through the windows in my room. They sure were a life saver this winter though when there wasn't much light and I wasn't working. I think that this winter will go by fast because I will be working full time again (hopefully *lol*).
I feel like I'm missing my right arm though and I keep thinking, "Maybe I'll ask Barbara to bring back _______". I know that it's just withdrawals and I need to stop looking back but you really get attached is some strange way. I really felt attached to alot of them. I know this is better, but still.........hard on the heart strings :(
Like Lin says, they are plants and replaceable someday when I'm ready and life is different.
You all are SO special to me and I truly love ya!!
Kimber
Hello Miss Kimmy,
I have thought so often about you and wondered how things were going. I vote with Susan about that Chantix. Get off of it.........it messes with your head! Plus, there are times in our lives when we can use a helping hand and good psychiatrists have saved my life more than once. I am happy with my life and I feel no shame in having needed some help for the 'tough' times in life. We may not all talk about it, but we have all walked in one another's shoes. Hang in there and do know how much we love you and God loves you even more.
Hugs
gail
Hi Kim!
Continuing to think of you and sending my prayers and happy thoughts your way!
Hang in there!!! I agree with Susan that what you seek will find YOU when you least expect it!
Keep your chin up.
Let go, and let God!
{{{{{HUGS!!!}}}}}
Karen
Just a quick moment to pop in and tell everyone that I am thinking of you all.
It's been one thing after another here and I'm trying to adjust daily *lol*
Teenage problems.........again (seems to be the story of my life) and from what he told me, he's sleeping in his car so I go to bed at night feeling about 100 pounds heavier than I actually am :(
On the up side, I received a call for an initial screening to work for BC/BS and the lady said she's going to recommend me for an interview so I should hear about an interview either the end of this week or the beginning of next week. It's a Customer Service position and I think I will enjoy it. There is 12 weeks of training *wow*
I ended up calling the lady that took my plants for me and asked her if I could go over and take some of them back. I went and rescued all of my chirita back (I just couldn't part with them, they are my babies) and a few of the sinningias and nematanthus. So now I feel I have exactly the family I was meant to grow *lol* I do still have some streps though too *lol*
I miss you all alot and think of you all the time. I do lurk here and there but because I'm so up and down right now I can't post much. One minute I'm crying and the next I'm jumping for joy. I'm a wreck but in time I know I will heal, this isn't my first ride on this merry go round *lol*
The biggest hugz to the bestest ladies I know :)
XO
Kim
Kim
It's so good to hear from you! I will keep my fingers crossed for you with that job! What is BC/BS??
LOL ... Life certainly is a "Merry Go Round" and sometimes even a "Roller Coaster" and I hope your life calms down to a nice even pace before long. Aaah ... kids! I have always missed terribly having a few but when I hear of family and friends going through "stuff" I think maybe I wouldn't be able to handle some situations regarding raising youngsters, especially TEENAGERS!!
Just remember ... the years will pass and eventually they will grow up and hopefully not give you anything to worry about. Well ... as a parent, you will always worry, but hopefully there will be no real serious worries. And, eventually they will have families of their own and at some point "wonder" ... how did mom and dad do it?!
Take care and please keep us updated on the job search! So glad you adopted your plant babies back! You need a diversion from hectic everyday happenings, and tending plants is great therapy!
((((( Hugs ))))) & Blessings,
Lin
It's so good to hear from you again. I've been wondering about your job search and it sounds like all may fall into place soon for you in that regard. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I only had two girls, but when they were both teenagers at the same time, I thought they were two too many!! This too will pass. I hope it passes quickly for you.
You really did need your babies back and I'm glad you got them. Pop in whenever you get a chance.
WE love hearing from you, Kim...............and hope you will pop in more often............Teenagers are really the 'ups and downs' of life, aren't they! Let us know about your job , etc................love being updated on youl.
Thanks everyone and thank you all for understanding. We must all be women :) I know this too will pass and I'm trying to keep the faith :)
Lin, BC/BS is Blue Cross/Blue Shield. GREAT benefits etc. and the starting pay is very nice too :) The lady I spoke to yesterday really seemed to like me alot and told me that just by talking to me that she feels that I will move up quickly in the company. That is SO encouraging after so many weeks of discouragement. The unemployment rate in Maine is the highest it's been in years so the competition for each job is huge. Makes it very difficult. I told hubby I was almost to the point that I was going to cashier at Wal-Mart *lol*
I'm just grateful that everyone is healthy and we're making it day to day right now. The burden of Josh is really heavy on my heart as he was my first born and was born on my 20th birthday. I raised him for 2 1/2 years by myself so we were VERY close and it is just heart wrenching to think of him sleeping in his car but he really needs to figure life out and maybe not being home will help him with that.
Anyways, I'm here and thinking of all of you and thank God for the wonderful friends he has put at my fingertips :)
XO
Kim
Hey, Kim...I don't get on this forum too often, but sure feel for you by reading your thoughts here.
Wishing you the best of luck with everything...the interview sounds promising!
IF it doesn't work out though....all I've got to say is, hey...there's nothing wrong with being a cashier at WM!
My job doesn't pay the most and we have our share of problems, too...but a job is a job, and every vocation has it's place of importance in the world!
Believe me, too...I've known my share of 'teenage' problems....have two who have gone through it and have two to get through it, still!
I know they often push you to your limit, but as a mother whose teenage son was very ill at one time.....take it one day and one problem at a time, and remember that things may not always BE what they SEEM.
Hang in there!
Kim,
WM has some good benefits I heard. My first husband's 2nd wife (confusing isn't it-LOL) went to work there when they both loss their very nice jobs with a doctor and my ex went back to school in FL for his doctoral degree in PT. He's got a very good job now but she (with her degree in Psych I think) still works there at WM because of the benefits and I guess she enjoys it too and all of the people she gets to meet too. So...you never know honey. Good luck with your interviews.
Laura
My daughter, who had a lot of learning problems in school, started her first job with AnthemBC/BS as a customer service rep for the champas (Military) division. They trained her in a way she readily understood, and soon was one of their top customer service reps. The company moved i t's hdqtrs to Indianapolis and she didn't want to commute 65 miles. She took her severance and looked for another position. She got a position with Dorel Children's Division(Costco ) factory in Columbus, ( a 20 min commute). She has worked her way up to being the sole rep for acconts like Target, Wal-Mart Etc. She has done well and it is all due to the training she got at BC/Bs. I hope you get the position, I think you will like it.
Let us know as soon as you know. we are family after all.LOL Lou
Sounding good, Kim. I will keep you in my thoughts over this job........and Nan is right about our kiddos in their teens and early 20's......just still babes and they finally do figure it out....but so hard on us!!
Good Morning Friends,
I certainly wasn't dis-ing Wal-Mart. It's one of my favorite stores, In fact, my sister in law is a manager there. I truly think I would LOVE to be a cashier there but it's just that I wouldn't be furthering any of my office skills etc. and the pay just wouldn't be enough for us to make it on. In Maine, they don't hire any full time Wal-Mart employees. They keep them all part time so that they don't have to offer benefits. It's sad, but true. I need something full time now.
I'll tell you, it's all or nothing, I received a call yesterday and have an interview in Biddeford (about 15 minutes away) on Monday for a Teller position at the credit union over there. I'm sure it won't offer quite as much as the BC/BS position will but it's much less of a commute (about 20-25 minutes less). So I have to think of the gas, tolls etc. However, the benefits with BC/BS are amazing (from what I have read online) so I really have to think good and hard on this one. I'll see how both interviews go.
Lou, what an inspirational story about your daughter. My daughter also has learning problems in school so I related to every word. It's wonderful that BC/BS took the time to train her the way she needed to be trained. They have a 12 week training course before I ever start the position. That is one thing that I'm really looking forward to. I have wanted to learn medical terminology/coding as it is in big demand here. I think I will like doing customer service too as I enjoy helping people. I think about whether I will like being on a phone for 8 hours or not but I'm sure there must be breaks in calls here and there. I'm really anxious to find out more. The people I saw in the building (I went there to drop off my resume) really seemed to be happy to be there so that was my first impression.
I will be saying my prayers they like me and want me to work for them *lol*
Hope you all have a nice weekend :)
((((( Huggers )))))
Kim
You know what they say Kim.."Good Things Comes To Those That Wait"..I have a feeling Great Things will be happening soon for you my friend..ooo I can relate to the troubles with your son..just keep reminding yourself..this too shall pass..even tho I am sure you are at your wits end..it may not seem like it now but he will grow out of it and believe it or not you both will look back at this phase and smile in years to come..
Big Hugs!
Nancy
Kim,
I knew you weren't dissing on Wally World, just saying. Good luck with your interviews. God just must be saving something special just for you, you know.
Thinking of you,
Laura
Kim, I love all the stories people share with you to give you inspiration! All these stories help me, too! I have a son who has had his ups and downs in life but we also have a few laughs now about the past. Your son will grow up.........it may take 10 years or however long, but they do eventually grow up.
My son called me yesterday to say that he was in Baton Rouge, La and it was just horrible from the storm. Trees are down everywhere and over 700,000 people don't even have electricity yet. They went over to cut trees. That is what he does for a living. They are camping out as there are no motels with vacancies. He said they would stay and cut trees and remove them until they were so tired they couldn't camp out any more. He and his partner got their first job when they drove into town. Some lady saw the sign on the side of the pickup and told them she would pay them 1000.00 to cut and pick up her giant tree today.
He also told me that he had been a little worried about paying all his bills this month as Austin had had a lot of rain and he wasn't working every day. Then..............the house he rents had a tree fall in half on the house before they left for Louisiana. He called the landlord and told him. The landlord said, "Jackson, just get that tree picked up and consider your rent paid for the next month".
Jackson and God talk all the time and he really does trust that God will take care of him. And, guess what................God does. Things like this happen to Jackson all the time......just in the nick of time. His belief is so strong and he never misses church on Sunday wherever he is. I do believe that our belief system has a lot to do with our good luck or bad luck. There is not a doubt in my mind what a believer you are and God , I promise, will take care of you.
Love
gail
Oh Gail, how I so needed to read your words today.
Yes, I have a strong belief in God. Although, sometimes I have to admit that I forget to lean on him the way I should. I start to think I can handle this all alone but I know I can't.
Jess went to the football game last night with her friends.
Needless to say, she ran into Josh. She said "Dad, his eye were all squinty and it was night time. I said, Josh, you are high on drugs". Josh said "How do you know what high on drugs looks like, now go away Jessie". She was so hurt.
Come to find out one of Jessie's friends says to her........I know Josh, he sold me marijuana before.
Yep, time for me to take the blinders off and realize that my son has been lying to me for many years and that he is a pathological lier with a drug problem and an ambition problem. Not easy to swallow but day by day I'm accepting it and not beating myself up over it anymore. I can't beat myself up, Jess and hubby need me. Just SO disappointing and heartbreaking. But, we all need to reach our own bottoms before we can start to climb out. I can't help him until he does.
Just another challenge in life, I'm sure there will be more *lol*
Jackson is such a encouragement to me. He has truly done such a wonderful job. I'm so proud of him and pray that someday Josh will wake up and see what he is doing to the people in his life that love him so much.
XOXO
Kim
Remember Kim........that when we pray everday for our children to come to know the Lord, we have to be willing to wait as long as it takes. I prayed for Jackson many times a day and it took 18 years to happen. God never abandoned either Jackson or me.
Don't worry about the lying.........it is all part of the drug addiction. Keep loving Josh and you can hate what he does but ambition is out the door when one is addicted to drugs...he is not pathological lier ...........just a drug addict. You keep thinking you can reason with him...you can't. Hang in there you wonderful mom and don't ever quit loving him and tell him that. You can also tell him you hope so much that he get some help and become the Josh that God intended him to be. But don't waste a minute with mad..........you don't need any anger........just hurt like a mom but love Josh.....
Jackson told me years ago before he relapsed again that the reason he quit using drugs was because he was so tired of me loving him to death.........he wanted me to stop caring and I wouldn't. That was a 5 year sobriety time with him.
We love you and God loves you more............
I haven't been on much either Kim. So I missed this whole thread.
Just know you're not alone. Most of us have been through the same things. I went through the whole drug ordeal with my son- my oldest. He's 24 and finally starting to figure things out. He's not totally there yet...
What a wonderful thing the internet is. Think of how it has brought all of us here together to support each other and lend an ear in times of need.
Sorry you're having a hard time finding the right job. It will come along and down the line the waiting for it will seem so short. And with everyone rooting for you and praying for you, how can you not find the job God knows is right for you?
Take care, I'm rooting and praying for you and your family as well.
Lots of love!
D
We have so much kindness and friendship here in the AV community. What a wonderful group this is! We cheer each other on in our life's endeavors, laugh and cry together and pray for each other's families in times of need!
Life is such a journey of twists and turns and highs and lows. I do not have children but saw what my mother went through with three of her six and have also seen what friends have gone through with spouses and children. Our lives are entwined with "stories" so similar, sometimes happy, sometimes sad ... I hope that the happiness outweighs the sadness for each and every one of you, and I wish you all much joy, always!
((((( Hugs ))))) & Blessings to you all,
Lin