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HI JEsse...i think the good news is they don't want a follow up till Aug...hang in there..we're all with you..bob

Jesse, I'm sure it's good news since the next appointment is in Aug. Keeping you in my T's and P's....Lauri

Yes, that is what I am thinking too. So I feel pretty good about it. Thanks for asking and letting me know that you care. That means a whole lot to me.

Jesse

(((Jesse)))

My grandmother always said, "no news is good news" -- sure hoping that's the case for you! I'm praying and trusting God to work things out.

Yes if it was bad they'd have you in there. Don't worry about anything just put i into Gods hands !

Many thanks to all of you. I have been doing a lot of praying and I know I'm in His hands. And I've always heard that no news is good news too and I'm counting on that. And for those of you that knew that I was going to MI for three weeks, that just got cancelled. I'm sort of sad but I think that hubby and I might go to the beach next weekend. We need to get away from everything so we will board my sweet doggie at that really nice place that we left him at before and go to the beach and forget all about our problems for a few days.

Jesse

Well all, I finally got a call from my doctor with the pathology results. It is not good. I do have cancer where they took the biopsy. It is a good thing that I went to the doctor for what seemed like nothing but a bit of skin that just seemed "wrong". Anyway, I go to see the doctor on Thursday and they will then take photographs to give to the surgeon. Then they will set up the date for the surgery. He said it is called Mohn surgery and it is an all day process. What they do is cut down a layer of skin, then test it, then cut, then test, until it is all removed. I'm not sure when the surgery is going to be. I guess they will set that up when I go on Thursday. I held it together for the most part while talking to the doctor and then lost it when I hung up. My dear sweetie held me while I cried. My mother had this same thing done and it took them 6 times. But since they have already taken skin off, I'm not sure how much I have left. Plus, I have medicaid and they will not cover plastic surgery like my mom had to have. They only cover things that are life threatening. I don't know what to do right now. I don't know whether to go plant something, go to bed and hide, or jump up and down and scream. I was just so sure it was not cancerous because I had not heard from them but he said he just got the pathology report. Anyway, I will keep you guys informed as to what is going on. Right now I am very scared and crying. I don't know what else to do. For those of you who pray, I sure would love a lot of that right now. If I've left anything out, don't hesitate to ask me. Oh one thing he told me is that this kind does not usually spread like the other kind but if I had not gotten it taken care of it could have been much worse. It could have spread and become a lot bigger.

Thanks for your kinds words that you have already written. They mean so much to me at a time like this. I think I'll go plant my banana tree that Nan sent me. It just came in the mail right before the doctor called. It really did come at the right moment. That will give me something to keep me occupied for a few minutes.

Thanks,
Jesse

Sorry Jesse. Why the hek did they have you going back in way in August ? Does not make sense ??
Everything will be Ok. I remeber the day I was told I had ALS. I had not a clue what it was. I was so healthy.
Everything the Doctor said to me was a big blur. I went home and typed in ALS into the computer and just sat there and laughed.

Oh, Jesse....I'm sorry too.
And I agree, Allison...this doesn't make sense.....how can they *do* that to people?! Aaargh!

Do what you have to do to 'get it out'....you'll at least feel better for that.

You will be in my prayers, Jesse, and you're so right....a good thing you went in when you did.... you certainly have that going for you...hopefully it will be taken care of with that first layer...we'll pray for that.

So glad to hear you got the package, and that it came at a time when you needed it.
Hoping you find comfort in those! (Did you find the baggie with the other 'starts' in it?)

Jessie,

Jump up/down and scream. Youv'e gotta get it out.

Our prayers are with you.

There are alot of strong and caring folks to lean on here. Do this whenever you need to.

Bless you.

Thanks so much for caring everyone. That really helps.

And yes Nan, that came at the right time. I did get the little baggie and got it potted and potted the banana tree. I didn't have a big pot so I used what I had. What size would you reccomend and I'll look for one when I go to HD or Walmart.

It is so great to hear from all of you. It really does make me feel better. Thanks for caring.

Jesse

Jesse, I too am sorry. The appointment in August makes no sense!! Yell,scream and plant till ya get it somewhat out of your system, then you will feel better for it.... You are in my thoughts and prayers...(((((HUGS)))))...Lauri

Thanks Lauri. I don't know why they did it that way. I'm just hoping and praying that everything will go smoothly and it will not get any worse.

Jesse

Jesse,
I want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.... I can't imagine what you are going through, but if you need to yell scream cry, whatever, just dmail me, I've got unlimited long distance, and Iwould be more than happy to listen

Hugs
Janis

Hoping and praying with you, Jesse. I'm so sorry that no news didn't mean good news after all. I'm hopeful that the early "catch" will mean quick and effective treatment. It's hard to face any serious diagnosis, but I'm sure it adds insult to injury that this is happening right in the middle of your face. I think God can handle screaming & anger from His children as well as any other reaction, so however you're dealing with this, keep bringing it to Him.

You might also think about posting on DG's prayer forum... I think a lot of the folks who check in over there are cancer survivors, and it can't hurt to have a few more folks nagging God to take good care of you!

Oh Jesse, I'll certainly keep you in my prayers. I'm so glad you went to see about it. They say early detection is the most important aspect when dealing with any type of cancer. Sounds like you did catch it pretty early, so I'm sure you'll be fine. I know you're so scared, though, as any of us would be. Lean on us and your hubby for support. Your hubby sounds like a wonderful person who loves you very much, so it's probably important to him to be there for you. And we all have strong shoulders, too. :o)
Many big hugs to you, Jesse.

So sorry,Jesse. :( I will be praying for you. D- Mail me too as I have unlimited long distance. Anything to help. Just know you have many friends here. Melissa

Jesse,

I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. But, I went through alot of what you are going through, just 2 years ago. I did get rid of the cancer ( I had a rare form of cervical and uterine cancer), but it kept coming back, and even when I felt like quitting, someone was always there to say something or do something and now I am up to visits every 6 months. That is a far cry from a visit every month, for very painful testing. When I had to go through surgeries, and radiation, I never thought I would be where I am right now. I also have unlimited LD and would love to be a shoulder to cry upon, or curse upon, or whatever. We are here for you. At the end of your rope? Tie a knot and hang on.

Kelly