Happy1
You are right, your doctor was smart and right. You have to use what helps when what you have isn't helping, if that makes sense. We have made all these things into social stigmas and insults and that makes it harder to take the help that is there. Personally, I come from a whole family of nutcases and those who aren't on medications really should be. It's not that something is wrong w/ you in the same way we think but something is wrong chemically. The plants help alot though, don't they?
Kell you have to do what works for you!
April
I had kind of a sad yesterday soooooooooooooo
Kell, I really know where you are coming from; my beloved MIL lost a leg and subsequently her life to an incompetant physician. The institution fired this person for what he did to her but I know, sadly, he is out there practicing elsewhere.
What I felt was pure frustration, like you, there were lots of could haves and should haves. But in the end, like everyone has told you, it is time to forgive yourself for something you really had no control over.
It sounds like you were a very loving daughter so I know you have many wonderful and warm memories of your Mom. The day will come when the good times are all you focus on. Hang in there Kell, whatever you choose to do, we're here for you. a
April,
My DGF was told over a hundred years ago, when he was evidently having some sort of problem, "Go dig in the dirt!", by his MD.
I feel entirely different when I work in the yard and it even lasts the entire day and into the next. It's incredible. I forget my aches and pains, (That is until I try to do something foolish), what's on my mind, which is not usually too
Kell (((HUGS))) You know I'm keeping you in my thoughts!!!!
What a very interesting thread!
Gardening is so theraputic isn't it? And gardeners are such nurturers. But sometimes we need more help. I've had a very rough few years (won't bore you with the details) and have been seriously depressed. I started taking Prozac a few years ago and like Jesse it has been a life saver for me. I've heard the broken leg analogy before and it is so true!
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Gardening always helps when I am feeling sad.
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Thank you all for sharing such personal stories with me. I know it is painful. You have such big hearts. We all get touched by great sadness and regret at some point it seems. I guess that is what being human is, being capable of such deep emotions.
I am going to wait awhile and see if I can work thru this on my own. This might sound odd but I am so afraid such mind altering medication will change my brain chemistry permanently or affect it in some way long term. I really like myself and the way I think and feel so I am afraid to mess with it. I enjoy my own company immensely. I know that sounds so weird, but I can amuse myself for days. I would miss me too much if I changed.
I never knew how blessed I was to wake up every morning so happy until I no longer did so. I realize it is all the luck of the draw and I was just born with great brain chemistry. I am so eager to go back to the way I used to be and I do see days like that now which tells me I will feel better at some point.
One of the things I do that I am hoping will help, is to carry on like I am having the best time and maybe one day soon it will be true. I try to do the things I used to do and make myself get involved. I am also trying to do more for other people so I am not so focused on myself. No good ever comes of that. I have been so blessed for the great life I have led, it is time to share more with others.
It is so true gardening is therapeutic. I feel whole when I am doing it and no one is there to be made uncomfortable when I cry so I feel so free to do whatever which includes even talking to my Mom. Some day you will hear I have been taken away by the men in white coats. Please write when they do! LOL!
Thanks again for all your support!!
LOl, Kell the man with white coats with straps havent chosent up at my house yet and I go to my mom, dad, grandparents , brothers grave and talk to them all the time. even took my DH when he asked me to marry him , so I could go and tell them the good news.Just dont start answering yourself.lol because than the man with the white coats just might come .lol
I to am a very happy person so I know where you are coming from.my nickname is "Sunshine" because I always have a smile for eveyone ....So many pts at the hospital started calling me that and than the folks here in town.....
Elva
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Hey Kell....I won't write, but I will bring you a care package! (((Kell)))
Kell - I too bought a pink rubber plant last fall ($5 in a 6" pot at Lowe's). It looked almost identical to the one you bought. This year, it only has a hint of pink in the leaves, it's mostly just green and cream color. It's in almost total shade but get's about 20 to 30 minutes of sun in the morning. I have it in a large pot on my covered patio and it's growing well. Does anyone have any ideas on how to "pink" it back up? Thanks!
Hey Kell....great plants!!!!
I was on Paxil for about 4 years and weaned myself off of it....I thought my short term memory was becoming affected and DH kept telling me he did live here and wasn't the repairman. It helped alot.
Hello....and your name is....?
Carol