Vienna..She 's gone

Vienna started jerking on thurs and I took her to the vet friday thinking they would have to put her down. He told me she could have addisons disease instead of kidney failure. He said it is fatal but treatable. I had just spent 126.00 on her sept 22 and now they wanted 380.00 to run different tests.

It was not she was not worth it, but was it all necessary?

My husband and I went bankrupt 1 year ago, recently lightning struck our home and fried alot of stuff. The biggest thing is the garage door opener as the door is 16 foot wide and made of wood. I am disabled and can't lift it. Our lawnmower went out, our vacuum cleaner. We told them we couldn't afford to buy those things and what was the most important tests for her. They wanted 100.00 down and a postdated check for 97.00 for 2 weeks. I explained I may not have it in 2 weeks. I already had a 25.00 credit and my best friend put up the other 75.00.

I had hope. Addison just gives the look of kidney failure. They did the test and sent her home after a shot and sent home some prednisone. Sat we waited for the test results. Finally at 10.00 pm I paged the vet. She said she over heard it was cushings disease. Still treatable. She said they would call monday. Sat night around 2:00 am she had a 30 min seizure while in bed with my husband. He held her and told me after it happened. I called the vet sun and she said she would see her but just to see her was 75.00. Vienna seemed a little better.

As sunday progressed she started jerking a little and sunday evening she threw up. I laid down on the floor with her and tried to sleep but couldn't. Finally at 4:00 am I had just dozed off and she had a seizure. I screamed for my husband and held her head as her teeth were hitting so hard together.
It lasted around 7 min. After that she got the runs. At 8:00 this morning we took her to the vet and we knew it was time. She was so sick. I had made up my mind I could't let her suffer any longer.
I stayed in there with her after the shot he gave her. She went to sleep. It was really fast.
You could see her little spirit leave as she slowly went down. It was so peaceful for her.

Please continue to pray for me as I am totally heart broken. I stayed up most of the night holding her and telling her how wonderful she was and how much I loved her. You know everything you wish you said and didn't. Well I tried to get it all said and love her enough for the rest of my life but in didn't work. Here I sit broken and lost.

Thanks for your prayers
Sandy




This message was edited Oct 12, 2004 5:02 AM