Having a really bad week....(none horsey)

I am sooo sad that I just need to share (vent) so you really don't need to read this or even respond. I just need to put down my thoughts.

Tuesday started out wonderful. We had a new kitten take up residence with us and we took her to the vet to be checked out and all was well. We left her there to be spayed and vaccinated. When we got home I took out my little Love Bird and was playing with her. Now this little bird came to me via a friend who's Love Birds had babies and weren't taking care of them. She was born around the same time my infant was and I hand raised her so we were very bonded. Anyway, the phone rang and I took the call but asked my daughter (three years old) to hold the bird. She has held her many times and I didn't think too much about it. Well, I was on the phone for like 20 seconds and came back in to the room to find my beloved bird limp on my daughters arm. She just kept saying she was sorry and I was just beside myself! Twinkle died in my hands. Now, I am in no way mad at her but myself. There are one hundred different things I should have done (which I have been over all) and I just keep beating myself up over it. I had nightmares that night. Anyway, my DD is fine and doesn't seem to understand all that happened and she and I are also fine (I never got mad at her or blamed her!). I just needed to get it off my chest - I am still so sad and miss my little friend terribly!!! With tears in my eyes I am going to go drown my sorrows in my horses neck. Thanks for listening (reading).