i dont think i am strong enough

Snoopy is sick and has been the last couple of days. today she has stopped eating completely.


i lost her litter mates to feline leukimia all with in a six month period. since i didnt lose snoopy at the time i was hopeful she wouldnt have it.

she goes to the vet at 5 o clock today but this is killing me.

if i lose her i will be down to 3 cats in the house with the dog and my two males outside. snoopy stays outside too.

i am thinking about not getting anymore pets even though they show up on my door. my recent addition Blazer is fixing to go get fixed next week. he probably will be my last one. he is also a stray so hopefully everything will turn outr okay with him.

hubby says if she does test positive for ity to put her down as he doesnt want her to suffer through it. there is no cure.


i hate feline leukemia. when i lived in the city i had strays all the time and none were ever sick. get out to the country and i am losing them left and right. nothing seems to ease this diesease for the kitties. Snoopy is my heart and i have been crying over this all day.


its not fair

heartbroke but knew this might happen.