I would like to apologize to anyone who I may have hurt earlier. I did not mean to hurt anyone. As far as the brat pack goes, they had asked me to let them know that I got home safely. I wrote a few things to Allison and would like to also paste them here since it applies to some of you.
I have been so mixed up lately. And yes, a lot of it is the bipolar and borderline stuff. My doctor has changed my medication 3 times in the past couple of weeks. I am trying so hard to do what is best for me so that I do not hurt other people. With the borderline stuff I only see in black and white, there is no grey area for me. I am not using that as an excuse. I planned to come home and tell you guys first thing, since you are the ones that mean so much to me. But the falling asleep thing really did me in and I was all mixed up. I apologize to anyone that I have hurt. The good news is that we are not going to CA. I feel as though a ton of weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I am so sorry if I offended any of you. You have been really good to me and for that I am very thankful. And the brat pack is not important to me like you guys are. I only went there to say hi because I had met some of them while I was at Bluebirds. You guys should know by now who is the most dearest and precious to me. And like my DH just said, when you go without money for so long, and you finally get some, you do go a little crazy. So, that is what happened. I had never been to a greenhouse like that before and I just lost my head. But she did give me unreal prices. The Russians are $8 and she sold them to me for $4 and the same with the space babies. When I went that morning it was to buy supplies but when I saw all of those beautiful violets, I just lost my head. So that is what happened. Then on the way home I kept falling asleep. It was so scary. The only thing that got me home safely was my sweet hubby. He kept waking me up. And they brats had asked me to let them know that I got home safely. That is why I wrote them. Then I fell asleep and slept for 3 days. I am not sure if I got up other than to go to the bathroom. I might have made a post but I am not sure. When these episodes happen, I do not remember anything. I hate being like this. I am taking medication to try to keep myself somewhat sane. You guys are the last people in the world that I would ever want to hurt. You have been such a sweet family to me, something that I have never had. I don't know what else to say except I am very sorry for hurting you all. It really makes me sad that you have been hurt by me and I will try my hardest to make it up to you. So please forgive me. You are the only family that I have.
Love you lots,
Jesse
An apology for me being so mixed up
No problem here. We love you and your 'zanieness' ;O)) Linda
oh Jesse..we lov ya...and believe me...sometimes we all go crazy at sales...lol....for me it's uncontrollable at times...he he....but hey...enjoy...bob
LOL... I went just as nuts (21 plants) when Nanna & I went up to the Violet Gallery last fall... Nanna tried to give me The Look a couple of times, but it made no difference, AVs just kept jumping into my basket!
Jesse, no forgiveness is needed, sweetie, just take care of yourself. You certainly don't have to limit yourself to your AV buddies on this forum! How did that song go that we learned at camp.... "Make new friends.. but keep the old... one is silver & the other gold!" I was just relieved that somebody had heard somewhere that you'd gotten safely home.... you've had a rough go of it lately, and we were worried about you!
I'm glad you don't have to risk driving in CA when you're not doing well... Did I read correctly that your DH doesn't have to go either? That would be wonderful!
*hugs*
Jesse, just glad you are here and you are ok. and enjoy the plants!! : )
Jesse, just glad you are here and you are ok
aAND TRY not to worry us anymore. I thought your Hubby was in CA, and could not come home ? Sso you were going there ? So your not going and does he get to stay home !
Jesse,
It's good news that neither of you is going to California, and I sincerely hope that your hubby can find work there where you live and not have all this hassle again. We are so glad you are OK. Have a good time with your new plants and your new pots.
Diane
Thanks so much you guys. You really are the neatest people that I could ever know. I do have one question for you though. I am giving ALL of my AVs haircuts and I have tons and tons of leaves for all of you. How do I go about getting them to whoever wants them? I am so excited that I finally get to share with all of you. After I finish getting them all wicked and repotted, I guess I can make a list of what I have to share. I have plenty to go around. And I will make me so happy to finally get to share with all of you. Back to repotting but I'll check back later.
Jesse
Jesse,
No one here is upset because you joined Brats. We were just worried about you.
I thought that you were upset that I had joined the Brats. I figured that all the knowledge that I can get is good, no matter where it comes from. But you guys are my family and that will never change.
Jesse
Jesse most all of us belong to other groups. I joined Brats years ago but their writing is too small for me to read. And the yahoo groups that come in the emails sometimes you have to wait days if someone or you ask a question to get an answer. I Love DG's so many Forum's about everything ! I like how it's set up easy to read...and more and more.
Jesse We don't care if you belong to Brats or any other groups we were just worried about you.
Hey Jesse. Just read this thread. I always say we need as many friends as we can get. Enjoy the potting and put the rest out of your mind.
Hugs and Kisses
Nanna
Ok I am out of the loop. I don't know what Brats is nor do I knw what this topic is about.
Now that being said. This is what I do know :) Jesse is a doll baby :) She has always been so sweet to me and I so enjoy getting to know her :)
Jesse, about the AV haircuts... It might be better to figure out where the leaves are going before you cut them, but you could also probably put them into baggies and get them out in the next couple of days.
If you're offering leaves for postage/trade, you could do it the same way folks do over in the seed trading forum when they've got a bunch of stuff... Post a list of the varieties you're offering, and how many sets of leaves you think you might have of each, and whether you're looking for trades or postage, etc. As people respond with their picks, edit the first post to indicate which varieties remain
If you need to watch your postage total, you might also want to limit the total number of participants. Even if everyone sends you their postage promptly (which I know folks try to do, but sometimes stuff happens), you won't have the money in hand if you're cutting leaves this week. Nobody's going to think you're a piker if you can only afford to send out a few offers at a time. :-)
Thanks you all. That makes me feel so much better. I have some bad news and good news and since you are my only family I thought I would share it with you. The good news is that we don't have to go to CA. However, the bad news is that DH is now out of a job. I hope he will be okay. At times like this he can slip into a very severe depression and I don't want that to happen. I need to get him up and going to try to find another job as quickly as possible. I get SSI but that is just enough to pay our rent. So he needs to find something fast. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. I am going to post my flowers soon and I have tons and tons of leaves. How long do they last in the little plastic baggies? I do not want any of them to go bad. I have a few NOIDs but most are named. So maybe when I post them you all can tell me how to do it.
I am so worried about DH. I just hope he does not go downhill before he finds another job.
Thanks for listening.
Jesse
Well, they all really needed a haircut pretty bad. And I have already given them one. I do not need anything in return. All that I ask is that you pay the shipping.
Jesse
Sorry to hear about your husband Jesse :( Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help
Thanks Lorry. You have all ready helped by being my friend. That means a whole lot to me. So thanks so much.
Jesse
Jesse,
Put the names on the baggies as you cut them and get them shipped as quickly as you can. None of us will turn down leaves. LOL All of us will send you postage, and if you have a PayPal account that will be instant payment. Otherwise it will take a few days for you to get your postage back.
It's good to hear you sounding better and some of us have already been praying about your husband's job situation. Just hang in there.
Diane
Thanks Diane. I sure do appreciate the prayers and the support. If he finds a job soon he will be okay. If not, he will get depressed and then will not be able to pay our bills. So I'm really hoping that he finds one soon.
Jesse
Jesse,
I'm so sorry to hear about your DH, and pray he will find something else real soon. You take care of yourself.
Hugs,
Sharon
Thanks Sharon and hugs to you too. That job was the oportunity of a lifetime for him. He has no high school or anthing like that. But his boss saw the potential in him and hired him anyway. It lasted for a year until the boss got the company into some really big debt and all kinds of stuff like that. DH tried to keep the company going but it just got to the point where there was no money coming in. And I am upset because he is still owed a lot of back pay and I'm not holding my breath as to him getting what he is owed. It sure would be nice to have that to keep us going until he finds another job. But we have to have faith and hope there is something out there for him.
I really appreciate all the prayers from all of you. I know that prayer makes a big difference. So I will try to keep our faith level high and hopefully something good will come our way.
Jesse
Just call me late - BUT never late to dinner! Jesse lots of folks belong to more than 1 forum or group- it's ok. Not everybody is simple like Begonia and me where our needs are so easily met. Some people are more complex and they want more input. For Begonia and me, too much stimuli confuses us.
I don't think anyone was mad, but everyone was worried.
Good to know you are ok- so this shopping spree is symptomatic of your bipolar disorder?
yes, it has a lot to do with it. Spending sprees are one of the things that borderline people do a lot of. So it was partly that and partly because of seeing that many AVs for sale for the first time. And it just so happened that DH had just gotten a little money from work. We don't either one have checks so we can't write hot checks. We use cash or bank card for everything. That way, we don't have hot checks. DH and I are both bipolar and borderline so it would not be wise for us to have checks.
Jesse
Jesse when did your hubby come home ? I sleep too much I missed that part. Last time I knew he was in CA and could not come home for the weekend his boss said. And his boss was getting you a ticket to go there instead . I missed when he was lucky and got to come home :))
Now it's nice your not alone.
Well, he told them that he was leaving and he came home late Wednesday night. He was supposed to fly back out on Sunday. But he told them that since things were not looking very good for the company, he was not going back so soon. He did this after he had already booked my ticket so we lost money on that. But he is home with me and working from home like he usually does. I don't see much hope for the company but he told me that the boss still has not given up yet. So we don't know much about his income right now. He is still owed some back pay and he has told them that he wants it now, at least part of it. So we will see how it goes. He is basically the only one running the company, with just one guy over him. As long as the boss does not give up then DH is still trying to help the company stay afloat. Personally I hope that the company does pull out of its debt and makes it. DH really loves his job and he does get to do most of it from home. So until we know what the company is going to do, he is now working from home again. Thanks for asking.
Jesse
He did not lose his job, then, that is good.
Well here is the situation. He works for a VOIP company. They used to have tons of employees in the states, in Vietnam, and India. Now there is only the boss, the next in line to him and my DH. The company has lost all of its sources for service and they are in so much dept it is unreal. I do not see anyway at all that they can pull out of all the debt that they are in. But apparently his boss is not ready to give up just yet. So, DH is still working hard to make the business succeed. He has become the programmer, the engineer, the technician, and every other job that you can think of. He has been busy writing a program that will allow the company to bill the customers so that they will have some income coming in. I am not sure what will happen. DH is behind in getting his pay check as usual. They owe him for a couple months I think. Anyway, when we get paid, he will give me a little bit for some plant supplies that I desperately need.
I am going to have to depend on total faith that the company can pull out of this mess and become successful again. If it does, we will be very happy. If not, he will have to find another job.
Jesse
Jesse
I don't like to look at the glass as being half empty, but it sounds pretty risky to depend on his current job if the company has gone down hill that much! I know I'd be scared to death! Anyway maybe your DH should update his resume and post on it on Monster or something...he doesn't have to take any job, but who knows he might get an offer he can't refuse with a company that pays regularly! It must be very hard for both of you to live w/ that situation!
Good to hear Jesse you husband has not lost his job !
I thought you posted his boss was buying you a ticket to come out there with him sense he was not allowed to come home for the weekend and how nice it was for your hubby's boss to buy you a ticket. But instead your husband came home Wed. WOW.
Jessie you posted you were going to go to Bluebirds for the reason of buyinf suplies ??
What happen ?
His boss had told him that if he came home he was fired after he had been there for two weeks, which was how long he was supposed to be gone. At the end of the two weeks is when he told him this. So, hubby stayed into the next week but just did not want to be away from me so long, so he bought his own ticket and came home on Wednesday night. He was supposed to fly back out this past Sunday. I already had a ticket from a time when I was supposed to go but didn't. So, as it turned out, neither of us flew out there because we did not think it was wise at this time. If things turn around and start looking up for the company, I'm sure he will be going back.
As for the deal with Bluebird's, I was going to buy some trays and lids, pots, and Optimara plant food. I had no idea that I would see all of those beautiful violets. And I just could not help myself. DH had finally got a little money and gave me some for my "plant" fund. That is what I used for the violets and supplies. I need to go again because I need some more trays. No one sells them by themselves. You have to buy them with the jiffy pots and inserts which I do not need. So, I got my plants and he wound up not having to go back right now. We will see what the future holds for his job. He is looking around at other possibilities but it would be great if this company could turn around and start doing well.
Jesse
I'm not sure if you should go back Jesse until your husband has stable work full time and being paid each week.
I have never bought trays though I'l love to have a big fancy stand with light and trays this is not going to happen only if we win the Lottery.
Couple years ago we started buy those plastic like shoe boxes you can buy them any where for aobut .79 cents to 1.00. Then when on sale hubby started buying large ones too. I put my leaf cups in them and turn the tops upside down for excellent trays. They wash and bleach good. And lasted me about 2 years. Still going strong !
Also I was taught at local group you can go to deli's in grocery stores and ask them for conatainers to use for wicking.
I'm sure there are a lot of people on this forum that can't afford to go out and buy suplies and trays either
and our plants are happy you just have to make due with what you have.
If you go to buy suplies you will just spend your money you don't have on plants. Now between the ones you bought " Optimaras" and Bluebirds and people have sent you and babies growing you have a great start and lot's of work to keep them all healthy and blooming. I am hoping to see blooming pictures of your plants soon !