heavy heart.

I got an early start this morning to head to town. The road that takes me into town is well traveled. Lots of cars buzzing for the 8 o'clock work rush and last minute shoppers.

It was cold this morning.

On the side of the road, right beside the yellow line, there was a kitty. It was in distress. It was hunched over, quite clear it was injured. I found the nearest turn around. I made it back around to go help it. I tried in vain to catch the poor animal. I took off my coat and covered it up to protect myself from being bitten. As I tried to scoop the cat up, it managed to get away from me. It had a head injury. It was flalling around and it threw itself in the road, it was awful. It ran around in circles. I was flagging traffic to not hit the poor thing. I tried again to catch the cat. This time it flipped and turned and fell into the ditch. I made it worse, the cat got wet and it was so cold. I just feel sick over the whole thing. The terror in its eyes..I can't stop seeing it. I climbed down the ditch, trying to catch it, but it ran again. I tried for about 15 mintues to catch it, but couldn't..each time I tried ...well, it was just awful.... It was in shock. As hard as I tried, I just couldn't get it. It ran to a private yard, it could have been the owners, I dunno. I went and knocked on the door, but no one came to the door. I had to turn my back and leave the cat to suffer. No matter how hard I tried to catch it, I couldn't. I prayed that it would just die peacefully.

It is a year ago this week that I lost not one, but two of my older cats. I had to get them put down due to cancer and kidney failure. I can't stop sobbing. It makes me so sad that little children and animals have to hurt.