saying goodbye is too dang hard Pepper

she got into a poison from somewhere in the neighborhood the other week. we have been trying for almost 2 weeks now to get her right but today after everything i decided enough is enough and chose to put her to sleep.

she was starving to death . her throat due to the poison even after meds and a surgery wouldnt allow her to eat. all she did was lay in one spot and if she did walk it was wobbly like her back legs didnt work.

a 10 pound cat down to 4 pounds is not good.

i know in my heart it was right to keep her from suffering but i sorta feel bad about it too. i know she wont suffer any more but its just so dang hard. this is one i raised right out of momma. she was the last out of a long line of cats i have had.

i have the harem left as i call them 4 abandoned kittens but its still very hard and i dont know how to deal with this one. most of my animals die of natural causes but to have to take her life to ease suffereing due to some ones poison is hard.

in tears Marie