Reflecting on Evamaes & Baa's posts

Reading Evamae's post a couple of weeks ago slapped me upside the head. Reading Baa's post made me realize that I can't help myself by being chosen..lol. I saw myself in both postings. This weekend I also realized I can't keep the pace I have been used to. The snowball has finally hit the bottom of the hill and it is huge. I can't go anymore. I am exhausted. I am tired before my feet hit the floor. I decided to give up milking the girls for a while. Running a one woman show has gotten the best of me. The decision was tough, done with loads of prayer and seeking God's direction. This weekend in church, the Pastors sermon opened up with the sentence "Is your plate full...?" Then he went on to his sermon, preaching as if he spent his days with me at my home..lol...I cried because I knew what my answer was but didn't want to face it. I love milking my goats, I love making cheese, I love everything involved with goat keeping..but I suppose everyone needs down time. I am not selling my girls, but giving them some well needed time off too. I bet they will enjoy just being my pets. Maybe in a year or so, I'll go back to milking. I realize there is a time and season for everything, my season just finished. ;-). So, while I greet this ending of a season with some hesitation and sadness, I am looking forward to maybe spending some time doing a little weekend camping or fishing. My husband is very happy with that idea! With not having to milk, it will be easy to take time off and away. After all, I can find someone to feed the animals for me when I am gone, just can't find anyone to milk.

I will still do the Farmers Market, I am looking into making cheese from store bought milk--doing some research on that.

Baa's post made me realize also that the need to care for something is my biggest "problem". I am not happy unless I am caring or nurturing something or the other. I don't know if it comes from my screwed up childhood, but that is when I am my best, caring for critters. I realize now I've been caring for them so much that I've not listened to my own body. Sally is growing up right before my eyes. She is begging us to take her to the beach...my answer has been "But who is going to milk the goats if we go?" Each time her question has pierced my heart. I want her to have fond memories of her childhood with the animals.

So, with all the above said, I am taking the rest of the summer off to play. I was going to wait 'till next year, but next year seems so far off. There is no better time than now.

Thank you Evamae and Baa...your reflections and thoughts have really ministered to me.(I am sure my husband thanks you too) You never know what kind of impact you have on someone elses life. You both made me realize things.

~Kindest Regards,
Lisa

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