i did not realize how much worse my pain and ability to function has worsen until i did dinner for everyone on christmas. i cooked for several days in spirts and still was exhausted the whole time. just 2 or 3 yrs ago i could do this meal with no problem. it is so depressing. i went for a sleep study last night to see if this may be part of my problem. i won't get the results until the 6th. i hope this is the reason for my exhaustion and depression being so much worse. i wake up with a head ache and stay tired and depressed even though i am 40 mg of prozac a day. being disabled is not a lot of fun. i don't mean to complain but sometimes i just need to let it out and i know my friends here are willing to let me do this. thanks
christmas dinner was so hard to do
My dinner was done in spurts also, Janet and I forgot some of the stuff that I was going to do and also crossed a few items off my list when it was getting to be too much for me. Being slower at doing things is not fun but I think most of us go through it in our lives anyway. I didn't plan on having fibromyalgia and bad knees but I do and now that the knees are new I am much better than last year at this time. Then I was on crutches and we went out to dinner so I am happy to be able to at least get dinner done for everybody. Mom raved that it was soooo good which made me feel much better as she has not been a person to complement anyone. It did help me that my DH vaccumed the house for me and he helped a bit with dinner too.
You have every right to complain and I do hope that you have a diagnosis soon that will help you to not be depressed. I have sleep apnea and now have a machine that makes sleeping a wonderful experience that I don't think I have had in a loooonnnnnngggggg time. I LOVE my machine!!!!
Take care of yourself and realize your limitations. That was advise from my Doctor. Hugs to you, Lani
Oh, Janet, tell me about it! One of the most difficult things for me this week was to sit in a WHEELCHAIR while we toured San Antonio Botanical Gardens. But with the pulmonary emboli history of late, it was the only sensible thing to do. I climbed one flight of stone steps, because it was so much shorter to go that way, and was truly miserable when I reached the top and my chair. I have given up on doing those olympic size dinners I used to think were easy, if strenuous. And I don't apologize for the house anymore. I wish I could have been this accepting many years ago.
thank you both for sharing. it really helps knowing i am not alone with this battle. the nerve damage in my legs from the diabetes is getting worse everyday it seems. i am getting anxious for spring yet wonder how i will ever endure the pain to plant anything. my girls help us alot but they have to have relaz time too so i try not to overload thme on there days off from school. maybe the new year will bring us all some new energy. if i could rest good i believe it will help. i can hardly wait until the 6th until i get my results from the sleep study.