The heck with it all

I realized today that i have no will power, but thats okay because ive come to some conclusions:
1. im NOT ready to quit smoking
2. i WILL NOT weigh 250 lbs again
i realized over the weekend that i've put on a couple of lbs and that bothers me more (now) than smoking does. (i know what i said about not liking the smell on a previous thread)
i seem to be having flashbacks back to when i weighed 253 pounds. i noticed this weekend that i had started "munching" again. When i got home from the commissary on saturday, i noticed chips and chocolate and all kinds of stuff that i shouldnt be buying.
i will continue to take the wellbutrin, and will keep myself to a pack or less a day, but for me thats it..
just my thoughts on a fat monday morning
jen