Ravens passing

I had to have my cat, Raven put to sleep due the the seuizures she was having.. she had 5 of them in less than an 8 hr period one night and I couldnt let her continue like that.. Meds were not working so I called and made arrangements with the vet and my girl friend drove me there the next am.. I was with her when they put her to sleep and I can tell you it was the HARDEST thing Ive ever done.. I would rather go through everything I went through when I got hurt, all 10 surgerys and months in the hospital than have to do that again.. I dug her grave the day before and made a box to bring her home in.. shes now resting in a corner of my back yard.. I made sure that when it was time the rest of my pets would be able to be placed in the same area.. she was 12 yrs old and had a life that most kitties can only dream of.. I still have Canyon my manx and my 2 dogs Grace and Fiona but there is a void..I know it will get better with time but she had been with me thru the worst times of my life..
I miss her