healthy living week of june 20-27

Good morning loosers..........
it's gonna be a gorgeous day (i hope) cause it's my party and its gotta be a winner.

yesterday I went to the oncologist specialist......egads......was that a mistake or what??? wish i wasnt in such a hurry, i wish i could have waited till after my party, i tell ya, he scared the living daylights outta me, i didnt have many daylights left, and he just snuffed them.
to be brutally honest, which he was..........the prognosis isnt good, there are 10 tumors in the brain, how the hell did that happen, i went in for a headache for pete;s sake......the lungs have 4 tumors, the adrenal glands are shot, they started the radiation as you know 2 days ago, now they are starting the radiation to the lungs, just to try to stop them from growing. I did say didnt i, that the lung cancer i have is the kind that non smokers get.......the brain cancer they dont see in women my age 49, but more in people of 80 years old. go figure.

so the oncologist pretty much said we will try these treatments, but it may wear you out so much, and not do any good, you will eventually make the decision that you dont want to continue. he is saying anywhere from 4-5-6 months. he was very kind of course, you know when they give you a sentence like that, i think they are trained to make all right noises. but i was in shock.
this isnt to say im giving up the fight guys, im just looking at things differently

like the party...well, its a prelude to my funeral, how lucky am i that i can see al my friends, share some memories, take some pictures, and just be here to hear what everyone has to say about me (how selfish huh) at funerals, the departed never hears whats being said........with this party, i am not going to say oh i have 6 months to lkve, i will still go on as though im in for the next 50 years, but privately can cherish in my friendship and be able to enjoy my peple. getting maudlin arent i?

enough of this sh**t

well, i was going to get back on the real healthy lifestyl;e, give up sugars cause they are the root of all evil, and i encourage everyone to do that......but hey, you know what, if i feel like a piece of candy, im eatin it
whats the challenge is that everything is makingme nauseated.........
and oddly enough, its the salads, the vegetables, the fruit that are appealing to me

you know what guys, if this is too depressing.....just start another weekly thread, i dont know what i was thinking dumpong this on you

im going in for a manicure and pedicure today
im going to get all dolled up
put on a happy face
and face the world full on

wish you guys could be here to help me celebrate my big day....the big 50......what a life.....

love and hugs to you all
pebble

ps...will someone start a thread in the prayer forum for me, i dont want to toot my own horn or anything like that, but i have so many friends here since 2001, i hate it when people njust drop out of my life and you never know what happend. so many people have come thru my life here on
Dave's - so many people affected my life, i could start counting, but whats the point......
oh humor me........ during my sons surgeries, during my husband's job losses, the move to turkey, the divorce, the thailand trip, all those fun fun things...... my dave's peeps have been with me every step of the way, i wish i could repay the kindness, generocity that was shown to me.
i am forgetting names, there was louisa, badseed, eyes of texas, my friend sho moved to virgina, god, her name escapes me, she has moved several times, then settled in an old barnhouse or farmhouse in virginai, you know who she is, someone help me with her name please. she had some health issues, she had long posts that kept up informed of her progress, can someone help me out, its gonna drive me crazy, i used to send her stuff when i would come back to the states, little things from turkey, how can i forget her name? she has a sister in florida, yikes,.......its driving me crazy, this is one thing im leaving to you guys to rememeber


thanks guys, as i said, we can delete the post, it got a little outta hand