General Discussion & Chat: SWEET INTERUPTIONS 278, 1 by synda

synda wrote:
Hi Cody .....Hope all is well with you

Thank You all for your hugs ! Yes , it has all just been very overwhelming and on top of momma passing away I had a lump in my right breast (after a biopsy we found it to not be cancerous yet) but with my Cousins Tracy and Beverly (Beverly was the other family member that passed in July of 2013) having breast cancer they wanted to take it out.So since God found the generosity to give me enough for 5 women and taking out the lump would cause a deformity since it was deep, I had a whole chest reduction October 4 of 2012 ( they took 7 lbs off) I was a G cup and now I'm a B/C and as perky as a 20 year old..... Everything as far as the surgery went well ,but even though I was 50 years old ,I still wanted my momma .I learned it doesn't matter if you are 5 or 50 you still want your momma when you are sick or have a boo boo ! I wasn't allowed to do anything for 6 months because of how much you use your chest muscles and the fact that there was ,the doctor put it HUNDREDS of stitches and they were afraid I'd tear something inside .My doctor was amazing ,a very rare thing these days .Thank God Ryan wasn't working and had just moved back home .He did all the cooking and was here when Rick wasn't if I needed anything.He even cooked Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners . He even learned how to bake ,made cheesecakes and Bavarian Cream fill cupcakes for the Fire Dept. Christmas Party .Rick and Ryan are both Volunteer Firemen on top of there jobs . Boy did I ever hate it when Ryan found a job ,my cook was gone .....LOL.

I still have good days and bad ,sometimes more bad than good .But time will soften the losses .I learned that 33 years ago when my son passed away.

This crappy weather has really played havoc on my fibromyalgia ,talk about a roller coaster ride .

Sue those are some good buys ,but would only last about a month here ,but I am feeding 2 men .Rick works out in the elements and Ryan works 12 hour shifts , so I try and cook nice meals for them most of the time.....but I do get tired of cooking ...,,remember my cook got a job.....LOL .Boy did I get spoiled !!!

Ryan is at my youngest brothers this weekend building a computer . I'm not sure if he'll be home today or Sunday ,but they a fire meeting Sunday at 6 pm so he'll need to be home to go to that .Trust me ,sometimes it is a pain having an intelligent child .Thank God he has his own money to fill his wants as it can become quite expensive ! With what he has wrapped up in parts to build the "perfect" computer it should at least do dishes !!!! I am so very blessed with Ryan ,he will just automatically go buy groceries and help out financially when needed .

Rick has been awesome through all of my grief ,I didn't want coddled ,intimacy ,anything . I just wanted left alone to deal with my pain and get things straight in my head .And he just has stepped aside and let me have my space and give into my whims when I wasn't being logical .But ,we all deal with grief differently ! When he'd walk in and I'd be crying all he'd say was "did I do anything wrong" ,and I'd say "no I'm just having a moment" and he'd say "ok ,as long as it wasn't me"....LOL.

He is a picture of my wonderful ,handsome 27 year old son .....