General Discussion & Chat: ♥Sweet Interruptions # 233♥, 1 by synda

synda wrote:
Well ,they decided NOT to move mom just yet ,maybe Friday (Fred wants her to go home after she gets out of the hosp instead of a nursing home) I know why ,all the land and mineral rights were signed over to HIM a few months ago and in Ohio there is a 5 year look back period so he would have to answer for the land (70 acres) and money from the sign on for the mineral rights and we are talking hundreds of thousands of $$$$$$......She still has too much fluid in her chest around her heart. Her heart is just so bad that I do know this is the being of the end .And truthfully I am so done with it all ...the lies from Step dad (Dale ) and my brother Fred (he's 4 years younger than I) ,trying to stand behind my youngest brother Shawn (he is 11 years younger than I) and his fight for justice ,I want to say "Mom you chose to marry this @$$ and have stood up for Fred our whole lives making whatever wrong he did just seem like it was OK........You ask for this now you've got it "!But dang, it is soooo hard to except that a mother can have 3 children and choose one over the other two. Are we not worthy of her love and for this to be so bluntly thrown in Shawn and I faces ,I am 49 years old and for your entire life to be shoved in your face as a lie is very hard to comprehend let alone to except....I am so sorry to just puck up all my frustrations on you sweet sistahs ,I have not slept in two nights and am quite emotional and so tired physically and emotionally ,I am in a full blown fibro attack and ridden with guilt that I am going to be 50 years old and want to live for myself for once in my life.All Of my life mom has laid a guilt trip one me that she needed me .....for what to make Fred's life a picnic !!!!!! Does anyone have a spare "ONE WAY " ticket to somewhere with no forwarding address ......LOL ......I want one badly !!! I am at a point that I don't even want to go to the funeral when she does die ! She always made me feel bad that she married my real dad because she was pregnant with me and stayed with him for us kids (believe me ,she did us no favors by staying married to his drunken run around @$$)....and dumb@$$ me did everything in my power to make her life more pleasant for the last 49 years because I felt bad for her and wanted HER to have a Full and Happy life. It is gut wrenching to be the blunt of a joke for your entire life ! Again I am so sorry to continue blubbering ,I know that you all have many burdens and heart aches in your lives and don't need me carrying on like a total psycho !!