General Discussion & Chat: Diane/Makshi, 1 by makshi

makshi wrote:
Thank you for the support guys.
I am going through all kinds of emotion; from having cheerful moments where I do not think about her for a while (the GUILT involved when I realize this is horrendous!); 1am walks with my moms' 17 year old Rott/Dobie mix, Amy (my mom got her when she was 10 weeks old), where I want to just rip my face off and throw myself in the street, I miss her so much; just a roller coaster.
Days I look forward to the future.
Nights I BEG god to let me die in my sleep.
It is awful.
I should be okay, but it hurts so much sometimes, it is not fair.
I know she wants me to be happy, and she would occasionally say I would be better off when she was gone because I would be able to "get on with my life".
I will never be "better off" without her. Period.
Thanks again for the love,
Andy

Pic is of mom and my sister Becky.....