General Discussion & Chat: Best/Worse/What did I learn today? Pt.30 Visit with Friends, 1 by hellnzn11

hellnzn11 wrote:
Everyone I thank you for your concern for me. My IP has been down so it is just as well because I wouldn't have wanted to talk.

I am unable to stop crying for any real length of time yet, too much guilt, too much lost time and remorse. I wish I had just told Greg I was going to keep him just a little longer. I think he was happy here. He was sick and maybe it was selfish but I just feel like I murdered him and forsook him.

You are all so compassionate and it was so sweet of Betty and Shar to go hunting for me on the Glass of Wind thread. lol

I will be ok. I just have to sort it out. I have been given a lot of tips and hope I let myself want to stop missing and thinking about him. It is hard for me with him buried outside my bedroom glass door.

don't let me have a pitty party for myself here. You have probably all been through something similar. Sorry. Here is a pix of him. I love yall.