Accessible Gardening: #19 Practical Matters for Physically Challenged Gardeners , 0 by Agavegirl1

Agavegirl1 wrote:
Your grapes sound yummy! Wish I was there to taste them. It would be so wonderful. Especially with some cheese, olives and nuts and a bottle of wine. Ahh...dinner the way it was meant to be. Simple, uncomplicated, satisfying and good. Summertime my favorite meals aren't necessarily those I cook but things I "nibble" collectively.

Spent a rather hot day tending cacti...YES..they do need some love too. Put in a new barrel cactus and just sat and hung out by some of my old friends in the heat. So much for end of Summer relief. It's shooting back up to 109-106 again for the next month. No cool down until mid to late September. :(

Carrie I'm so sorry your doctor was insensitive. It's not an excuse but I don't know how these people not be insensitive and do their job. I'd be in the bathroom crying if I had to deliver every piece of bad news health wise to someone and not be able to shut myself off emotionally. Then again I'm not that kind of person which is why I'm not a doctor I guess. I don't think they're mean I just don't think they look at things emotionally or from your point of view. It is rare if you get one who does. I found one so I'm going to cling to this guy for dear life! Hopefully those you have helping you now are treating you better.

I agree wit you Jim on exploration and alternatives. Why not? My feeling has always been what is the worst thing that can possibly happen? Am I any worse off then I am now? Can I get better and if so by how much/what percent? Is that an improvement than where I'm at. If so, then WHY NOT?

Tell dear Kay, no she did not frighten me about the brain surgery or the Charles Bonnet Syndrome. I just like to believe what I say when I say, "There's an answer to every riddle and a solution to every problem. You just have to think long enough and hard enough about it to find it." To me brain surgery is the absolute, last, final option. When I have nothing left to try, nothing left to do, nothing left to explore, think about, research or contemplate then maybe I will think about that. So far though my research and intuition has paid off well.
Perfect example of why I keep slamming on the breaks is that I have carpal tunnel not nerve damage and ataxia and cold, numb feet due to meds side effects not nerve damage/poor circulation . It took them how many years to catch this?
Uhm...now they want to do brain surgery...what might I actually have instead? Yeah, now you see why I'm not foaming at the mouth to go do this. I'm sorry even though my doctor is great it is going to take an awful lot for him to convince me of this one.

As for you, I'm glad they're babysitting! Behave yourself and get well. Buddha said all things are impermanent. That means your condition also. Take some comfort in that. :) You'll be your own self again soon. In the mean time enjoy and stop feeling guilty. If you're like me then that is what it is..guilt for not working, and driving yourself harder than necessary or into the ground.

So far though my research and intuition has paid off well. Epilepsy is Epilepsy. I fall on my head. All Epileptics do. I know many who have been hurt a lot worse than I and some who never get any injuries other than something minor. It comes with the territory. Every illness has got it's "thing". I'll keep playing musical meds until I figure it out. I will figure it out.
I keep going back to the periods of when I was seizure free. There was the majority of my life. Then a spell of 6 years. Then one for 3 years. I try to look at "why"? What was going on in this time exactly when I was seizure free?
You know what I came up with?
I was happy. I was really, truly, purely, genuinely happy inside and out and at peace with my self, my life and my circumstances. I was beyond happy. I felt joy. Real, true, unadulterated joy. It filled me and my every day from the time I got up until I went to bed. I felt like anything and everything was possible in life at any given moment at any time even if I wasn't.
I had bills. Often I didn't have money. Some of those times weren't always happy days but inside of me...TTC...I felt this indescribable joy.

No I don't believe it is that simple. But I think a lot of our recovery can be that simple. Tap into that feeling of "joy" again and "Physician heal thyself." even if it is the joy of knowing you're right when you discover ways to cure what ails you. I say go for those African Hookworms!

It was funny. I was born in 1968. All day today I could not get out of my mind a song written and sung in 1967 by Scott MacKenzie. I must of listened to it about 12 times in a row. My husband asked if I was alright. I said, never better. You probably know the song,

"If you're going to San Francesco be sure to wear some flowers in your hair
If you're going to San Francisco you'll be sure to meet some gentle people there
Lord knows those who come to San Francisco in the Summertime
There will be a love in there
In the streets of San Francisco gentle people with flowers in their hair.
In the streets of San Francisco there'll be a love-in there.
All across the nation
Such a strange vibration
People in motion
There's a whole generation
with a new explanation
People in motion....."

I'm sure you know the rest of the song.
Anyway my husband teased me about it and the 60's "Age of Aquarius" hippie vibe stuff. I was joking around because it was amusing so get a good laugh out of the photos...but you know what...I still can't get the song out of my head.

Peace. Out.
TTC